A precious pic i found in facebook!!!

看到这张照片，很开心啊！！
中华小学第四校，六蓝班。哈哈~
勾起许多回忆，从小学开始，成绩就不是很出色，
天意弄人，老把我安排在好班。
从小学一二三年级的青班，
到小学四五六年级的蓝班；
从初一二三的孝班，
到高一二三的理忠。
这是十二岁的我，好像除了身材向横发展了点，皮肤差了点，
就没什么改变了。
回忆慢慢的浮现....

爱吃同学的便当；
缠着外公带我搭公共巴士上学；
教师节的玩闹；
考试作弊；
被同学用可乐瓶子打头；
被老师揪耳朵；
跟同学吵架；
用粉笔在桌上画清介线；
同学用我的牙刷刷鞋子；
吵架吵输了就哭；
第一次过马路，到对面店铺等爸爸接我的喜悦；
下课铃声一响，奔跑到小商店买五毛钱一碗的面；
二年级马来文不及格的恐惧；
跌破下巴，缝针，第二天包着一团布，同学围绕着，好奇的要我给他们看；
羡慕同学在贵贵的酒店开生日会；
羡慕同学有最新的笔盒等，文具；
第一次得到父母的同意，与同学去看电影；

好多哦！！！好开心！！
你们找得到我吗？嘿嘿~

小故事 （第二则）

《蜕变》- 每个人都是自己命运的建筑师

欧洲有一位艺术家，要画一幅耶稣的画像。由于耶稣是上帝的儿子，代表着神圣的形象，应该画得庄严肃穆，因此这位画家便四处寻找一位相貌很好的模特儿，并且完成了这幅千古佳作，受到举世的赞扬。

过了几年，有人提议，光有这幅惟妙惟肖的耶稣画像还不够，不能显现耶稣的伟大；如果再画一张魔鬼撒旦的像和此相比照，效果一定更好。可是面貌长得像魔鬼的人要到哪里去寻找呢？最后只好到监狱找一个面相凶恶的囚犯做对象。

当画家为囚犯画像时，这个囚犯突然掩面哭泣起来。画家就问他说：‘你怎么哭了呢？’
‘我是触景伤情，忍不住悲伤才哭的。’
‘什么事让你如此痛心呢？’
‘几年前我也曾经当你的模特儿，想不到数年后我又遇到了你，可是人生境遇却完全两样！’

原来这个囚犯就是先前充当耶稣画像的模特儿。
画家听了大吃一惊说：‘你的相貌怎么变得如此凶狠可怕呢？’
囚犯说，当时他得了这笔奖金，吃喝嫖赌，做尽坏事，甚至以身触法，坐进牢狱，相貌也因此变凶恶了。

相随心转，你的心可以让你变耶稣，也可以让你变撒旦，就端看你自己了。

老娘的第三次下厨~

嘿嘿~
真不知好歹，明明周三有份作业要交，今天老娘还兴致勃勃的把昨日的下厨故事一则写下。
昨夜，明月当空，（哇哈哈，也不知道有没有明月，反正只想挣个开场白。）
美女同屋与我心血来潮想自己做饭？
其实不是心血来潮，老娘是被逼得。哈哈哈~
同屋把土豆，牛肉，鸡蛋，菜圃，还有一个不知道什么名称的菜拿了出来。
她让老娘炒菜圃蛋，哈哈哈~真是胆大哦。我可是没炒过的唷。
但是基于想做出一点贡献的心态，我打肿了自己的脸，充了一回胖子。
三两下就把菜圃蛋炒好了。

这时，同屋的手机响了，而老娘我闲着没事，就开始帮她切土豆丝，（原本她切的是片，可老娘每吃过土豆片，而且觉得面积那么大，应该很难熟吧。）
切着切着，老娘神游了。就在不知道第几刀下去的时候，那一刹那，有一种感觉老娘会受伤，就在瞬间，哎呀！切到了！！嘿嘿~不叫，不闹，老娘很酷的向手指望了望，伊~~~没血哦。（老娘不是人？）
就在自己将要得意的认为自己只是切到皮的时候，这血好像懂人性一样的，哗啦哗啦的流出来。（哗啦啦啦啦啦，下雨了~~）
二话不说，先塞到嘴里再想。
冷静的，爬上楼，美女同屋在客厅看到我的样子，比手划脚的问：‘切到手啦？’
我很酷的点点头，（那手指还在嘴里呢。）
同屋的反应，表情，好像自己切到手一样。想必是三维立体病发作了。哈哈哈哈~

到了楼上，冲水，涂药膏，再贴胶布。
回到了厨房，继续切。
美女同屋看到了，又比手划脚的说：‘不用切了，等我来。’
想必是不好意思吧。我心想，现在已经八点啦，待会儿又有人来，还不赶快准备？
所以不加理会，自顾自的继续切。

等把所有的菜农好了以后，已经是八点半了。
炒了一盘菜谱蛋，什么什么菜炒牛肉丝，香菇肉酱土豆（其实是罐头炒土豆），浙醋‘排骨’（其实是牛肉）。
噢可，菜谱蛋，跟什么什么菜炒肉丝是我做的。香菇肉酱土豆跟浙醋‘排骨’是同屋的杰作。
来了一位朋友，像评审一样的坐下，拿起筷子，一个一个，一小口一小口的吃。
在还没发表评论前，老娘就放话：‘这可是我23年的人生中，第三次做菜哦。说话要经过大脑！！’
评论是：‘还可以吃。’
哈哈~虽然不是很好，但我已经很高兴了。
至少可以吃。不会吃死人。

ps：美女同屋的外婆很喜欢我，又一次邀我去她们家吃饭，但老娘摆架子，不去。她外婆一直问她，你朋友呢？你朋友呢？为什么不来！她会是个好媳妇！

喷饭吧？？搞笑吧？我跟这个71岁的老太太还挺聊得来的。唉~老娘是老了。连跟71岁的老人家都没代沟？？？不可思议！！
费解费解~

ARGH!!!

Its mid of September!!
Which means, crazy period is coming real real soon!!!!!

I have a book review that due tomorrow..
Guess what?? I've finished the book.. but.. i havent start writing it yet!!!!
How crazy that is?
And for my studio.. haiz.. dunno how to say!!
LAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Procastination!!!!! Stress!!!
woohoo~~ im so dead!!!
design design design.. lalalala (im goin crazy)

But guess wat? me and jo decided to undergo serious study and excersize plan.. hahaha
that starts from tomorrow!!!
ok.. lets doing.. COME ON!!! ASSIGNMENTS!!!
Im not afraid of you all!! NOT AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

《右手边》

静静地坐在你的身边
还会有多少这样的时间
我要迎着这窗外的光线
牢牢的记住你微笑的侧脸

#我说了离别不会伤悲
这是我对你唯一的欺骗
因为我最喜欢你的双眼
那么美 不适合掉眼泪

*你要好好的去飞
不需要对我想念
我会默默地留下右手边的座位
有一天 当你看过世界
再决定你降落的地点

而我也会继续地
奔驰在这长长的街
左手边是我的心
右手边没有谁
为了你再寂寞我都可以成全
因为我相信
说过了再见
一定会再见

一个特别的朋友介绍的特别的歌，一直说歌词很有意思。本来很懒得去搜的，但搜了以后，果然觉得歌词蛮特别的。只不过右手边，跟马来西亚不符合啊~（嘿嘿~是不是破坏了歌词的情意？）

Becoming Christian again.

For those who know me well, I've undergo baptism in 2006, after 3 yrs of struggle and suffers in Aus.. I've finally accept Him, as my savior and the only God in my life.

My father was and still a very keen christian, but my mum is not. I wonder is that the reason stumbled my father from goin to church. To be frank, i've been to kch's church also, and i've been to Aus's church.. its totally different. Some church just give u a very good feeling, but some just dun.. I prefered Aus's church, i dunno the specific reason, i just like it base on my feelings.

I think, im not a very very holy type of believer. I don't talk christianity with friends, i dont drag them to church, cos i noe.. this is not the best way of doing it. Before i believe, i dislike people doing this to me..

'Golar, its fun!'
'No car..'
'We can drive you.'
'Dun feel like going.'
'Golar, got free food to eat.'
'...'
hmm.. this is the most common conservation ive heard when my friends try to bring me to church.. 'free food'.. hahaha~
sorry if i offended anyone of you.. its just my feelings.. i appreciate their effort, but i just dun like the feeling of being forced.

I owes think that religious is not a good thing when i was younger, cos most wars happened in history, majority are because of religion.

but my life in Aus, was so hard, and bumpy.. from chicken pox to operation, from housemate's conflict to losing friends, from quarrel to some legal issues, from discrimination to car stolen, almost every year, every semester.. there will be a dramatic issue happen to me.. all my coursemates were so amazed by my stay in Perth.. and owes asked for more stories..

Under these stories, i cant recall how, when and why.. I turned myself to God.. seek for help, and confessed my sins to him. I believe he is the one who carried me when im having those issue.. he's the one who support me silently and offered help to me without asking any repay. I finally, open my heart to become a christian, to commence my christianity life. I've joined the 40 days of purpose campus.. and after that, i always go to church.. and finally.. i've decided to baptise..

its a hard job to turn a non-believer into one.. in my life.. i've turn one man from non-believer to believer, but he never go to church, and he is not yet ready to devote himself into christianity life. I've spent 5 yrs to persuade him.. slowly, tell him stories.. affect him by myself.. at last! he starts to approach God by himself.. Im glad.. and happy for him.. at least, he starts to believe.

However, since dunno when, i seldom go to church le.. and i start to have bad habits and wasn't able to control myself well.. i think.. for certain period.. me myself was manipulated by devils.. i've done bad stuffs.. and now.. i feel sinful.. and everyday pray for forgiveness.. luckily.. i confessed to Him.. and bcos of Andy, i start to flip through bible, and start to keep contact with God, start to write my confession diary..

Hopefully, from now on.. i can start my christianity journey without fail.

God Bless You all~~

给自己的小故事一则

《智慧》

从前有个又穷又愚的人，在一夕之间突然富有了起来；
但是有了钱，却没有智慧，不知道要如何处理这些钱。

他向一位和尚诉苦，和尚便开导他说：‘你一向贫穷没有智慧，现在有了钱，不贫穷了，可是依然没有智慧。近来城内信佛的人很多，有大智慧的僧人着实不少，你出千把两银子，别人就会教你智慧之法。’

那人就去城里，逢人就问：‘哪里有智慧可买？’
有位僧人告诉他：‘你倘若遇到疑难的事，且不要急急处理，可先朝前走七步，然后再退后七步，这样进退三次，智慧便来了。’

‘智慧’这么简单吗？那人听了将信将疑。当夜回家，推门进屋，昏黑中发现妻子居然与人同眠，顿时怒起，把出刀来便想行凶。

这时，忽然想起白天买来的智慧，心想：‘何不试试？’
于是他前进七步，后退七步各三次，然后点亮了灯光再看时，竟然发现那与妻同眠者原来竟是自己的老母亲！这位暴发户有幸买到了智慧，避免了一场杀母大祸。这智慧，说穿了就是‘冷静’。

而西方民间流行的办法是：‘人嗔怒时便心里默数数目，小怒从一数到十，大怒则数到百以至千，数毕后再采取行动。

冷静提供了思考空间，大凡头脑一发热，思考的空间就少了，也就容易失去理智，意气用事，以至无端动怒，将人生带往万劫不复的地步！

《手》

那是你的手 曾经轻轻安抚我眉头
但也是它甩开了我的手
洩了气的气球 两颗心在萎缩的温柔
你始终只低着头 紧握你拳头
透过这窗口 有人会猜我们是朋友
最普通的朋友 甚至不点头
在记忆的上游 那是什么揪着我心头
是不是你那双我熟悉的手

但抱过你的手 还能放在谁背后
你想过没有 我们为何会牵手
是什么理由 然后没有然后
甚至不再挥挥手

那是你的手 曾经把我捧在你胸口
但今天以后它不会再敲我门口
有一股腥红的哀愁
缓缓地流出卡着我喉头
你远远的抱着手肘 只站在外头

但抱过你的手 还能放在谁背后
你想过没有 我们上一次牵手
是什么时候 然后没有然后
甚至不再挥挥手

抱过你的手 还能放在谁背后
是什么时候 我们上一次牵手
但抱过你以后 有什么已被没收
你想过没有 我们第一次牵手
是什么借口 然后没有然后
甚至不再挥挥手
分手也不需理由

Last night~

Las night was a relaxing night.
Jo went to her aunt's place for dinner, she did invite me..
But my ass was too lazy to leave my chair/bed..
She left at ard 7..

***2 hrs later***
She came back.. and came to my room..
I was watching 'kang xi lai le'..
We had some chit-chat.. and we browse through facebook and friendster together..

We both were always not the type of gals that like to browse through pics of others..
but tonight.. we did it...
And suddenly, we saw one fren.. We both was so shock that she actually went clubbing!!!
Make up oso.. and i screamed.. and said :' oh S**T, even she go clubbing.. me shu liao lar!!!!!'
Joanne was laughing and suddenly, she had this serious face.. turn around and look at me..
'To be frank, u r really shu lar.. u r 23 leh, have to do sth that u can do now, wear sth that u can wear now.. if not.. when u turn to 30.. u wont be able to wear anymore!!'

YEAH! Jo was right.. i shud be wearings sexy clothes, cute ones, classy ones.. but definitely not the 'la tak' ones.. hahaha!!!!
But im so uncomfortable with my fats!! And i dun feel like letting some guys outside to look at my 'ru gou'.. or its normal to show them publicly? Shud i feel proud that im able to show what i've got? hmm.. Shud change my attitude..

But luckily, my diet programme is still on progress, though kinda slow.. but if i continue with what i'm doing now, hopefully.. i'll get rid another 5 kgs by next chinese new year..

mayb i shud learn from some kch's frens.. or my china's frens.. or even singaporean frens, they were so enthu in losing weights.. they used crazy ways of doing it.. we owes said.. use healthy ways use healthy ways.. but for my case.. like stucked in this weigh for over 4 months le.. its kinda/very depressing and discouraging lor..
some frens said 'exercise more lor'
i tried.. last time went jogging 3 times a week, and joined body balance, body combat all these.. but my weight still the same leh.. however, when ppl look at me, they'll think i've lose weight.. i think that's bcos im firmed, but not losing fats.. and the most important thing is, i've gained muscle!!!!! gained muscle, lose some fat.. but 62 with muscle.. wont that look.. erm.. big sized???? so i stop, cos i was so disgusted with the muscle i've gained on my thighs..

mayb i shudn't have jogged, i shud just swim.. or walk..
yeah.. a web friend told me to walk up hills.. walk up hills for 1 hr.. at least 3 times a week.. mayb i shud try that~

sometime, i think gals are kinda sad.. lose weight lar, whitening lar, plastic surgery lar, nice clothing lar, nice nails lar, nice heels lar, nice bags lar.. FOR WHAT????

'Make yourself look pretty lar!' my mum...
'Then?' me
'Ergh.. 女为悦己者容' mommy
'hmmm' me..
'i don't want to be display vase' me..
'u can be pretty and wise in the same time!' mimi
'oh..' me
'HAIYA!!! u r hopeless lar, dun even think like a gal!' pretty mom

whenever i think of this conversation.. i'll laugh.. 3 yrs before, i wasn't worry... i never think of anything abt my appearance.. but this cny.. my father voiced out le...

'mei ar, u r undergo trainings to be an architect right?' papa
'ergh.. yeah~~'
'do u noe that, appearance of an architect also very important?' papa
'erm.. i think so.'
'not think so.. its IMPORTANT! ppl judge ur profession by ur outlook, imagine that if u go out to meet client with those fat and big t-shirts, man's shorts.. its just not.. persuasive lor.' papa
'...'
'u have to wear out ur style.' papa
'i dun go c client lor.. i'll everyday stay in office and work.'
'architect works as an agent, how can an agent not meeting client???' pa
'...'
'exercise more lar, make urself healthy and look good.' pa
'...'

hmmm.. even my father... WA!!!! scary la..
when i was in high school.. i remember there was once.. i wanna lose weight.. that time was 56.. and i wanna cut off my rice intake during dinner.. my father's reaction was..
'NO.. U HAVE TO EAT!!! WHERE GOT NO EAT DINNER ONE????'

now.. when i eat rice..
'MEI AR.. U SURE U WAN TO EAT RICE? FAT WOR!!!!'

haiz~~

昨日，今日，明日

昨日
‘月到中秋分外明，每逢佳节倍思亲。’
昨天是团圆的象征，是家人团聚的日子。
因为生活，本分，原则，我被迫在异乡，在一个没有家人的地方，过了一个没有亲人的中秋。
往年，我对中秋并没有特别的情愫，但不知怎地，今年感触特别多。
还记得儿时，我都是跟父母过节的。
独生女的我，一个人玩着十几个灯笼，局外人都觉得我挺孤单的。
但我并不感到孤单，因为我在父母的身边。他们的爱，填补了没有兄弟姐妹的空虚。
昨晚，我跟我的好朋友，兼美女同屋，过了一个很特别的中秋。
没有吵闹，没有喧哗，没有丰盛的晚餐。两包泡面，一碗烫青菜，一盘炒肉碎。
满心欢喜的享受者，闲聊着。
喜？

今日，
学习周的第一天，早上并没有赖床，但也没有很好的运用自己的时间。
因为昨日的运动，导致今日的疼痛。
呵呵~太久没有运动了。筋骨都老化咯。
重新调整了心情，正化了计划，近日开始，要慢慢的向新方向起步。
容我允许自己，再懒一天，再享受一天。
上帝的宽容，我真的感受到了。
我一而再的背弃，再而三的离弃，祂还是没放弃我。
回顾这5年，混混噩噩的，懒懒散散的，散而漫的。
大五了，怎么过的？
糊里糊涂的就上到了大五，不是神迹，那是什么？

悲观，暴躁是我的标记。
记得状元（希望没写错）曾经说过，我有女侠的性格。
到了澳洲6年，暴躁已经被磨了些许，女侠性格荡然无存。
有的，还是暴躁，悲观。呵呵~
奈？

明日，
新的开始？
还是旧的延续？
迷？