Prayers needed!!

I need prayers, and I need concerntrations. I am in a mess and I wish I can overcome this final bit. Please, forgive my procastination, forgive my wrong doings. Bless me with luck and determination! I need to focus and focus and focus!


Say least, Think twice, Action proves everything.

我好像

我好象已经开始不爱了。谢谢你，让我第一次尝到社会的现实,第一次学会付出与所得不一定成正比。

虽然很伤，但是我知道，一旦这些伤口愈合后，那些浅浅淡淡的疤痕会提醒我，警惕我，让我不会再犯傻。爱情是假的，只有亲情和自己才是真的~ 我会永远学会这个不变的现实。有经历，才会成长，才会成熟。男人看的，都是外表，都是表面。

我好像还是放不下，我还是很介意，就算自己做错了一些事情，我还是很小气的很介意。我不知道该怎么忘记，怎么原谅。我好像很小气的不肯原谅。该怎么办？该怎么做？？？

学习，我已经忽略到一种不能再忽略的程度，可不知道为什么，到了这个时候，我还是能躺在床上浪费我这宝贵的时间。我到底是怎么了？？？

身体出了问题，就因为一时的冲动，做了那种奇怪的傻事。我们都是冲动的俘虏。永远只会做这种傻瓜的事情。

永远都被眼前事物迷惑，忘了自己的真心在想什么。

第一次

第一次用iphone写博客。现在的心情非常复杂，因为原本有一个很重要的presentation要去的。但我选择不去，因为没做到什么功课，再这么下去这科就要被当了。很担心啊~

Sometimes..

Sometimes, when things happened, u just can't turn back the time to redo everything. When you've hurt someone, the pain will always be there. Unless, certain period of time has passed. You might be able to recover from such a deep pain.

I've been hurt by and hurt someone before. Its no good for both sides if the person is with quality personalities. He or she accidentally hurt someone, will feel very guilty. I am not saying that I am a very good person. But I certainly will feel guilty and try my best to amend the mistakes and pain I gave to my fren.

I feel guilty even that issue had happened 1.5yr ago. Whenever i think of him, see his name and pic on my phone, i'll feel very very guilty.

He is very kind.. He forgave me.. But i really feel like doin sth for him.. I hope i can.. Sigh..

Now, avthing is too late.. Nth can be done but only move on...

Sometimes, i jus wonder~~

Sad...

I feel sad today. Disappointments from everywhere.. From friends, and from ~ (for those who close with me, you'll know).. I know i have to let those bad things go, so that i can move on. But, its easy to say, hard to take action.

Whenever i think of it, i'll feel bad, pain, n hurt. People does change, they might not be same as last time, how naive i was.. To assume that ~ will be the same guy i knew 10yrs ago. He's totally different.. He did stuffs that is v hurtful and disrespectful. Ppl tends to become more n more selfish, n lack of considerations. I wonder why? Is it bcos what had happened? Or was it bcos of the environment that whoever stays within?

But dont worry.I'll be fine,tml is a new day. N everything will be just fine! Thanks for concern and spending time reading my rubbish.

Mei

It works!!!

Yep, the blog is actually working!! The story of the previous image is:

This little kitten is just a guest that stays at my place for one day. I can't recall its name, but it is sooooo cute!! He is so hyper and very sticky, he likes to sleep under my arms, and he'll pat you on your face to wake you up while you are sleeping. Though it is abit annoying, but it still feel good that your care and attention are needed by this little animal.

Though he only stayed here for 2 days, but once a while i'll miss him. For a person who stays by her own like me, its still good to have a pet ard to keep me accompanied.

But it requires long term period of care and commitment, so must think more than twice when getting one for oneself.

I wish i can get a border collie or golden retriever in future. But!! If it is for protection sake, mayb rodweiler, doberman will be better choices. Hmmm.. Must think clearly before getting one.

Anyway, thats all for today. Since i am able to blog through mobile, i'll be able to update more frequently. (Provided i am able to change my bad habit of procastinate when it comes to organizing photos... Hehehe.. Those who knows me, shud know what i meant)

Wonder...

Wonder why i cant set two different blog's account to my blackberry. And i found it is quite troublesome to type chinese from blackberry.

Lets test using email blog can post image or not...

Testing.

Hope can work..

倒数

距离关键的一天只有22天了，功课越来越多，时间越来越紧迫。
我每天都活在压力，压抑中。当我看到所有的同学都是用开心，愉悦的心情做着自己的功课时，我就开始怀疑自己的兴趣，我到底适不适合读我现在读的科目？有没有这方面的才能？如果过是，有，为什么我会这么辛苦？

为什么在澳洲的生活会这么不顺？七年里，搬了七次家。盲肠炎，出水痘，感情问题，朋友问题，同屋问题，车被偷，车被撞，被isp骗，掉钱包，反正每年一定有一，两件大事情发生。不停的发生，我开始对自己的神经能力有所赞许，发生了这么多事情，学业负担又那么重，我还没变神经病！呵呵~

朋友们都让我把在澳洲的事迹写成一本书，哈哈~书名叫做，当人与国八字不和时。。想想，还真是不可思议。不过相比之下，比我辛苦的人一定更多，压力更大的肯定一箩筐！所以，我这微不足道的小事情，还是别出书丢自己的脸了。

本来是对已经迟交的模型压力很大，因为觉得越做越丑，但是我并没有放弃，一直做，开始觉得并不那么难看啊！一定可以很好的，不要要求太多了，只要做完，尽力了，就可以了。自问，对这份作业，我已经尽力了！！嗯~~这周末，慢慢做完，交了，就是尽力了！网友们，对吧？

所以，凡事别把开始的丑陋给吓怕了，吓跑了，一定可以的，一定会完成的，就算没有很好的成绩，但至少尽力了，一定会过的。可能成绩不会是自己预期的那么好，但是，尽力了，就一定会过去的。

加油啊！无论是对感情，事业，学习，都会熬过去的！！

好久

好久没有写东西了，最近发生了很多事情。学习上的压力，生活上的压力，金钱上的压力，感情上的压力。今晚，他又食言了，答应我不会再挂我电话，可是又挂了，而且还关机。这是让我觉得最不能忍受的地方，一个大男人，一不高兴就挂电话。（很没礼貌的那种）

不过不知道自己是太习惯了，这次，没掉眼泪，这是第一次不掉眼泪了。是习惯，还是已经不像以前那么爱了？以前的我，很喜欢写日记的，一有不开心的事情，就会写写东西。把日记本当作上帝，做错事情了，就到日记本里要求神的宽恕，不开心了，就希望神会听到我的心声，有时候，写写，就会很开心了。

可不知道从什么时候开始，我已经不写日记了，不写自己的心情，是因为孟伯上次看了我的东西，让自己觉得很不好意思，还是因为写在部落格上，怕太多人看到自己的生活，想想，还是自己不够豁达啊。还是没有看破！

去年做了一件很错的事情，就从那时候开始，我觉得自己过得很空虚，很愧疚。一年多了，我时常都是活在愧疚里。希望今夜的决定，与他分开，会让我从此解脱。不会再活在愧疚里了。

朋友们，今天开始，我就是一个单身女人咯。虽然伤心，但我希望能好好享受一个人的生活，想想，应该是很自由自在，很开心的！加油咯，黄世眉，你行的!!!

祝各位读者，开心！幸福！