当08交接09时

去旧迎新，迎接新的到来。

过去的不快，悲伤，失败，即将结束；

而未来的未知，期待，想像，即将开始。

虽然08的跨年过的很普通，自己在家里静静的看着电视，偶尔发发短信；

虽然仅仅只有短信的陪伴，电视与同屋的声音伴着我跨年的心绪。

虽然不是最棒的跨年，但我还是很满足了，

至少我还健康，至少我还有电视，至少还能够上网。

在外国的朋友，有什么不如意的，忘了吧。

在家里的朋友，有什么不能忘的，放下吧。

因为过去的酸甜苦辣，将会是我们人生的一部分，故事的脚本。

如果忘不了，放不下，就接受它；

因为当我们失去活力，头发开始泛白的时候，这些将是唯一会陪伴我们度过老年人生的美丽回忆！

在离09年不到两个小时的现在，我想把自己心深处的祝福写在我这个小天地，送给大家！

请走出08的阴霾，张开双臂，快快乐乐的，健健康康的迎接09年的到来；

请承接08年的快乐，敞开心胸，活力四射的，感激感恩的，将快乐延续下去！

黑皮纽耶！！！！！

～新生活～

2008年年末，我踩着年少轻狂的情绪到了一个既陌生又熟悉的国度；

陌生与工作生活，熟悉在它的奢华。

这里的生活，充斥着爱与恨；

爱着它的繁忙，奢华，人潮～

恨了它的压力，紧蹦，竞争～

相比之下，澳洲还是悠闲的，自在的。

有一好就没有二好，国与国之间的抉择，就在于自身的追求。

舍了悠闲，得了充实；

了了人群聚集，始了悠然自得。

这当中得取舍，是困难，也是挑战～

<画皮>

从没想过，聊斋是这般的煽情～
电影所表达的，不如词曲带来的感动震撼～

<画心>－－－张靓影

看不穿 是你失落的魂魄
猜不透 是你瞳孔的颜色
一阵风 一场梦 爱如生命般莫测
你的心 到底被什么蛊惑
你的轮廓在黑夜之中淹没
看桃花 开出怎样的结果
看着你抱着我 目光比月色寂寞
就让你 在别人怀里快乐
爱着你 像心跳 难触摸
画着你 画不出你的骨骼
记着你的脸色 是我等你的执着
你是我 一首唱不完的歌
你的轮廓在黑夜之中淹没
看桃花 开出怎样的结果
看着你抱着我 目光比月色寂寞
就让你 在别人怀里快乐
爱着你 像心跳 难触摸
画着你 画不出你的骨骼
记着你的脸色 是我等你的执着
我的心 只愿为你而割舍

第一眼

在这个社会里，有很多人凭着第一眼的感觉，自身家庭的文化，又或者是自己对信仰的分析，意释，来评断这个社会，国家，政治，身边的朋友，又或者从身边路过的陌生人。

刺青＝流氓，黑社会

抽烟＝不正经，没文化

唱歌出生＝淫乱，放荡

不读书＝没出息

不是信徒＝罪人，下地狱

还有等等等等。

我实在不明白，为什么我们不能以公平的眼光对待平常人？自身的认知并不一定是对的，当然也不一定是错的。不过勉强他人跟随自己的想法，意念，对人生的态度，对未来的看法，是不可取的行为。

每个人都有自己的选择，自己的看法。变化无穷的人类，就是这个世界美妙之处！

啊～

减肥～减肥～减肥～减肥～～～

变美～变美～变美～变美～～～

今天

星期六的夜晚，

心理充斥着莫名的寂静。

本该是一群人的狂欢，烟酒弥漫的夜晚。

而我却择独弃群，在自己的天地里，

显得格外平静，舒适。

轻轻的叹到

～唉，还是不适合夜生活啊。～

贴着自己的炕，触碰着生活不可或缺的电子伴侣。

享受着自己专属的宁静。

是开心，也是舒服。

夜深人静，耳边缓缓传来悦耳的旋律；

独身的我，待在无人的空间里，含着饱满的心。

静静的，细细的，品味着这独特的时刻；

徐徐的，纤柔的，写下这刻独有的心情。

杂七杂八

这两天有很多杂七杂八的东西想写，可真正登陆到这里，摸着我的电脑键盘，盯着电脑屏幕久久，还真不知道从何博起。

一开始，为了配合自己为博客取的名字，曾一度想写些‘色’的东西。不过～放弃了。

再过一阵子又想写政治，可是，没兴趣。

想想，不如写历史吧？但～～ 不行，这方面的只是太浅薄了。

写是非？怕得罪人。

唉～什么都不敢，什么都懒惰。这可怎么写？

最后，还是决定，写嘲讽自己的文章，既搞笑，又不得罪人。

唯一的缺点，就是给予外人一个机会来猜测我内心世界。

所以，我又放弃了。

最近恋上网上看小说，（就是那种没什么水准，又常常带点色情的言情小说。）不过真实它！@＃！@的混蛋，每个到后面几个章节都要收费。唉～无奈。

最近也开始上班，倒是发生了几件有趣的事情。不过抱歉，我现在不想写。矛盾吧？讨厌吧？呵呵～大礼拜五的我在这里写个杂七杂八的文章。

没办法，朋友恋爱了，我总不能老拉着她瞎搅和吧？

眼皮好重哦，今早太早醒，昨晚又太迟睡，缺乏睡眠。明早要去验血，然后下午就不知道该干什么了。这可怎么过？（真是个不甘寂寞的老女人啊！！）不管了，明天再想吧。先睡为上策。

骨奶！

blog sth

i really feel like blog sth.. but i scared that im over happy, and over expecting over sth that might not come true. hmm... better keep it after i noe the final results~ hehe..

today is my first day working in my father's office. Erm.. tho its not my first time working there, but there some small bits differed from last time, my father cared abt my working clothes.. hahaha~ at first, i wore a short, then my father asked:' u sure u wear like that to work?'

i was shocked, cos he finally cares.. hahaha~

but.. sigh~ 'Jo, our house's weighing machine got problem, not accurate one..~' i've gained some weight during the stress period of my studies. now im on weight losing plan, hopefully can lose some before i reach spore.. so that i can fit in my working pants nicely. now a bit tight.. 

how i wish im born in tang dynasty.. or renaissance period!!! they all love fat ladies...haha~ now.. sigh~ dun mention liao largh.. sienz~~

anyway.. got to sleep early cos needa wake up early tml.. good night guys!

muachs!!!

初夏的知了

知了，也叫做蝉，是一种耳熟但未眼见过的昆虫。

今天在吃饭的时候，妈妈聊起了她在看电视的过程中吸取的常识。

说蝉这种昆虫，必须在土里生活两年才能见到天日，而且不是一出来就会飞，还必须得蜕几次皮之后才能变成成虫。

听了，我觉得不对，因为我记得很久很久以前，我读过一本书，它在土里生活不只2年，好像是要15年这么久。

妈妈说我不对，所以吃完饭以后，我就上网查了查（现在的网络带来的便利之一）。

发现，有一种特别的蝉，叫做17年和13年的周期蝉，这两种蝉分别在土里得生活17年或13年这么久。

这到底是为什么？而且不会多一年，也不会少一年。约定是17年，就一定会呆那么长时间。是为了避开天敌吗？是雄蝉与雌蝉之间的约定吗？

不管是什么，对这些成为成虫之后的蝉，只能在这美丽的世界里仅仅生活60天来说，17年实在是好长好长。从没想过放弃，从没按耐不住，提早离开土壤的知了，乖乖的，听话的接受上天的安排，安分的在黑暗的土里生活了十多年，然后成长，成为成虫之后，追寻自己的另一半，产下自己的下一代，接着，像是 完成了生命的终结使命，离开了大自然的怀抱。

这是什么样的精神？信念？和毅力？就连小小的知了都做得到，那我们这些自封为万物之灵的人类们该如何自居呢？

到家啦～

到家了！！开心～

argh~

12 calls waiting to be made tml, 12 houses waiting to be view.. hopefully, one of them will be my future house..

my clothes are packed, my books are packed, now left small small stuffs.. sigh.. my room now so messy~ and somemore we are trying to find a house by 27th of November.. hmmm.. and my working visa in s'pore~

i hate being a grown up, always need to worry so much stuff, need to handle so many daily life's issue. the worse is, im now still financially supported by my family, what if im working on my own? i need to sustain my life.. keep myself survive in this world. As quoted from Andy Goh: 'Life is about survival.'

What is life about for me then? hmm.. I guess, its about survival also. Survive in university, survive when accidents occur, survive when life impacted by unwanted issues..

At this moment of my life, it is about survival...

工作之旅

去新加坡工作的行程，一拖再拖。
从18号延到20号，又从20号延到了27号；
这不顺，意味着什么呢？
昨天又刚收到消息要搬家，所以今天就开始整理房间。
把所有衣服都收了，还有书。
老娘的书还真多，而且很多都是建筑杂志。嘿嘿~蛮有成就感的。
刚才看了看星加坡的street directory. 发现我所居住的地方，跟工作的地方是在同一条地铁线上，嘿嘿~不用转车了。开心~
晶卿说只需要20分钟，还好嘛~

嘿嘿~最近要找房子，然后收拾，然后准备准备，买点东西给父母，就出发啦~ 期待~

One very nice and touching song i found today

'We Are One'

Didn't need to ask
Don't know the reason
Everything that I believe
Is right here
Not thinkin' bout tomorrow
Couldn't catch it if I tried
World is spinning too fast
So I'll wait 'til it comes to me

I am you
You are me
We are one
Take me in your arms
And flow through me
I'll flow through you

Steal my breath away
Cause I'm so moved by you
Deeper than I ever thought
Was possible, was possible, it's everything, oh~
Difference between me and you
It's all in where your heart lies
And every day's another chance
So let's get it right

I am you
You are me
We are one
Take me in your arms
And flow through me
I'll flow through you

Did you lose yourself out there
Did you lose faith and give up
Don't turn away and hide yourself
Cause there's a friend to make along the way
We are the heartbeat and our souls speak
And all the beauty I have ever dreamed
Is right here in front of me, oh~~
Is right here in front of me, oh~~

I am you
And you are me
We are one
Take me in your arms
And flow through me
I'll flow through you

不在身边的情人

这，是我的心情写照
想想，我好像没过过有情人的情人节，
但，这种无谓的在乎，不是我尊崇的主义。

如果遇见对的人，每天都是情人节；
一通电话，一封短信，都会甜滋滋的。

我想，有恋可爱，无论情人在不在；
都是幸福的吧~

很可爱也很感动的爱情故事～

從前有兩隻小豬，整天過著無憂無慮的生活，他們互相相愛著。每天主人送來吃的時候，
公豬總是先讓母豬吃，等她吃飽了再上去吃母豬吃剩下的東西，每天晚上公豬總是給母豬放哨，
他生怕主人乘他們熟睡時把母豬拉出去宰了。
日子一天天的過去，母豬日漸長胖，而公豬則一天天瘦下去。
有一天，公豬突然聽見主人在跟屠夫商量，要把長勢見長的母豬殺了給賣掉，公豬傷心至極。
於是從那天開始公豬性情大變，每當主人送吃來時公豬總搶上去把東西吃的一乾二淨，
每天吃後便躺下大睡，並且告訴母豬現在換做她來放哨，如果他發現她沒放哨的話就再也不理她。
漸漸的日子一天天過去，母豬覺得公豬越來越不在乎她，母豬失望了，而公豬還是若無其事的過著安樂日子，
很快一個月過去了，主人帶著屠夫來到豬圈，他發現一個月前肥肥壯壯的母豬瘦的沒剩下多少肉，
而公豬則長的油光發亮．這時的公豬拼命的奔跑，想引起主人的注意，表明他是頭健康的豬。
終於，屠夫把公豬拖出豬圈的那一刻，公豬朝著母豬笑著說：『以後別吃這麼多！』
母豬傷心欲絕，拼命的沖出去，但圈門被主人關上了，擱著柵欄，母豬看著閃著淚光的公豬。
那晚，母豬望著主人一家開心的吃著豬肉，母豬傷心的躺倒在以前公豬每天睡的地方，突然她發現牆上有行字：
『如果愛無法用言語來表達，我願意用生命來證明』！
母豬看到這行字肝腸寸斷，人類聽到這個淒美的愛情故事也無不為之動容，
後來女孩們為了紀念這段愛情，同時也表示沒忘記公豬臨前的遺囑
『以後別吃這麼多』，現在大家就開始流行減肥……

最近

学期终于结束了，紧绷的情绪得到了顿时的舒缓。

但这突如其来的解放，是正还是负？因人而异了。

在条件不够成熟的条件下解放，我想除了坏还是坏。

别说我共产主义，我只是就事论事。

在我浅薄的认知里，没有知识，教育制度，法制制度不成熟的条件下，不是解放的好时机。

就好像一个小孩，如果在年纪小小的时候，不严格管教，管制，会成为什么样的栋梁？

腐蚀的还是粗壮稳固的？

五一事件，永远都是外国对中国，甚至对亚洲的衡量点。

这~~公平吗？文明吗？

大部分的人只会承认别人的缺点，接受别人的过错。

忽略的，都是这些缺点背后的由来，过错后面的缘由~

死板的把自己受过的教育，拥有的条件，套在别人身上。

唉~自私啊。

烦

什么都是.... 烦

找工........ 烦
找房子.... 更烦

申请签证... 烦
申请不到... 更烦

听朋友诉苦... 烦
找不到朋友诉苦... 更烦

看着那些不知足的人.. 烦
看着那些没足知的人.. 更烦

看着这个世界.. 烦
看着我的房间.. 最烦

不过！！！！

至少我还有那个力气去烦~
至少我还有那个精神去烦~

至少我还有那个闲情去想~
至少我还在这个世界闲晃~

加油！

最后一个了，撑下去哦。。woosah!!!!

很美的小文章

1.

开始的开始总是甜蜜的
后来就有了厌倦、习惯、背弃、寂寞、绝望和冷笑
曾经渴望与一个人长相厮守，后来，多么庆幸自己离开了
曾几何时，在一段短暂的时光里，
我们以为自己深深的爱着的一个人。
后来，我们才知道
那不是爱，那只是对自己说谎。

2.

你以为不可失去的人，原来并非不可失去，
你流干了眼泪，自有另一个人逗你欢笑，
你伤心欲绝，然后发现不爱你的人，
根本不值得你为之伤心，
今天回首，何尝不是一个喜剧？
情尽时，自有另一番新境界，
所有的悲哀也不过是历史。

3.

爱情总是想象比现实美丽，
相逢如是，告别亦如是。
我们以为爱得很深、很深，
来日岁月，会让你知道，它不过很浅、很浅。
最深最重的爱，必须和时日一起成长。

4.

因为爱情的缘故，
两个陌生人可以突然熟络到睡在同一张床上。
然而，相同的两个人，在分手时却说，我觉得你越来越陌生。
爱情将两个人由陌生变成熟悉，又由熟悉变成陌生。
爱情
正是一个将一对陌生人变成情侣，又将一对情侣变成陌生人的游戏。

5.

相信爱情可以令一个人改变，
是年轻的好处，也是年轻的悲哀。
浪子永远是浪子。令男人改变的，
也许是上帝的爱或者佛祖的慈悲，但绝对不会是女人。
最不宜结婚的是浪子，最适宜结婚的也是浪子。
往往不是女人改变一个浪子，而是女人在浪子想改变的时候刚好出现。

6.

想男人的一生，不过对女人做两件事：
超乎她想象的好和超乎她想象的坏。
女人用他的好来原谅他的坏。
如果有一天他们不能在一起，不是他太坏，而是她太好。
我们一生之中，要牢记和要忘记的东西一样多。
记忆存在细胞里，在身体里面，与肉体永不分离，要摧毁它，等于玉石俱焚。
然而，有些事情必须忘记，忘记痛苦，忘记最爱的人对你的伤害，只好如此。

7.

时间会让你了解爱情，时间能够证明爱情，也能够把爱推翻。
没有一种悲伤是不能被时间减轻的。
如果时间不可以令你忘记那些不该记住的人，
如果所有的悲哀、痛苦、失败都是假的，那该多好？
可惜，世上有很多假情假义，自己的痛苦、失败、悲哀，却偏偏总是真的。

8.

他纵有千个优点，但他不爱你，
这是一个你永远无法说服自己去接受的缺点。
一个人最大的缺点不是自私、多情、野蛮、任性，而是偏执地爱一个不爱自己的人。
暗恋是一种自毁，是一种伟大的牺牲。
暗恋，甚至不需要对象，我们不过站在河边，
看着自己的倒影自怜，却以为自己正爱着别人。

9.

爱情和情歌一样，最高境界是余音袅袅。
最凄美的不是报仇雪恨，而是遗憾。
最好的爱情，必然有遗憾。那遗憾化作余音袅袅，长留心上。
最凄美的爱，不必呼天抢地，只是相顾无言。
失望，有时候，也是一种幸福。
因为有所期待，才会失望。
遗憾，也是一种幸福。因为还有令你遗憾的事情。
追寻爱情，然后发现，爱，从来就是一件千回百转的事

Elo~

I jus realized that word version 2007 can blog! So now im jus testing.. hehe.. i have a 70% assignment due this Friday, but i reckon its an easy job cos the teacher is very lenient, hehe.. im taking advantage on someone's generosity. Bad yeah? But also its an easy unit, I mean, its sth with direction and right or wrong, not like design's unit of philosophy ones, as they don't have actual right or wrong, but with own's arguments and supportive scholars publications. Which mean research, and I am damn bad in researching.

Las night me and my perth's family went to watch SAW V, gory type of movie but somehow, with depth. I am really very impressed by the scenarist's creativity. The killing mechanisms, the storyline, it is just extraordinary. Too bad, it is too bloody that I don't think msia's government will grant allowance for publications. Highly recommended by me!! Hehe.. (yeah, I noe im a maniac)

Need to finish my precis and an essay tonight. Then start my assignment tml, and after this Friday.. Im goin to somewhere I don't know to hunt abalone with joanne!!! Yeepie, should be fun. But each of us can only catch 20.. hehe.. I don't like abalone tho, I'll freeze it and bring it back to my parents. Haha~

Next week will start structuring my presentation for next Friday's assignment and after that, clean up my room, finalize my visa's application.. pack.. and off I go~ woohoo~

What a contented coming holiday! Work work work!

Oh yeah! Did I ever mention? My ex co-worker, Yi is pregnant!!! So happy for her!!

Today..

Today i went shopping with joanne, im thinking of getting myself some working suits and a pair of proper shoe. but.. i din get myself anything.. but had me and jo's nail done..

its in pain.. sigh sigh.. what a lousy shop.. i dunno if its normal or what.. las time i had my first manicure in china.. it wasn't pain at all.. but this time.. dunno why.. quite painful.. the way they did it is different.. hm... but the guy who did for my nails, was very cho lo.. like im not human like that.. so 'da li' until like i owe him a lot of money.. however, he's a viet.. i scared.. so dun dare to do anything with it.

anyway, just tahan for few daya lar, hopefully it will get better soon. gals are owes like that, rather spend money, and pain, jus want to make themselves look better.

oh yeah, ive mentioned working suits right?? noe why?? im goin to s'pore!!!! hehehe.. like real soon.. how soon?? 18th of November!!! i've booked the ticket, found job there, and im goin to stay there for 2 months!!! will go back to kch on the ... cant remember.. i think is 20th of jan...

this 2 months job means a lot to me. This will be my first working as a profession related firm, and oso first time staying in a 2nd different country.. hehe~ im very excited and looking forward to.. yay~

终于结束了！

长达一个月的噩耗，31天的磨难，这一切的一切，终于在我走进305教室时，结束了！！！！

我好兴奋，我好开心，虽然这两天加起来我只睡了6个小时的觉，但现在的我一点也不想睡觉，感觉好像绷了很久的皮筋突然间松了下来。没有方向，但心情很舒服，平静。

玩着玩着，有点累了，也有点饿了。出去买点吃的，下次再写吧。嘿嘿~~

~Amazing Grace~

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

T'was Grace that taught...
my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear...
the hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares...
we have already come.
T'was Grace has brought us safe thus far...
and Grace will lead us home.

The Lord has promised good to me...
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be...
as long as life endures.

When we've been here ten thousand years...
bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise...
then when we've first begun.

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

ARGH!!!!!

'ARGH!!!!' this is the words appears most in my msn's friend list... what f world lar (mean folio world).. craziness lar..FOLIO FOLIO FOLIO lar..focus lar.. dont want lar.. walau.. .. stress to hell lar.. whatever!!!!! our world is like so miserable right now.. and everyone is in high degree of stresssssssss.. i dun lie one.. if any of u happens to visit my faculty during this period.. u can even feel the stress like 10km away from the campus!!! IM SO STRESSSSSS!!!!!! i think im having a panic attack!!!

Time is so short, so many need to do!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I need prayers.. if u r reading this post.. do pray for me yeah.. pray that i'll pass, i'll able to finish the minimum requirements with average quality..

ok.. back to work!!

‘雀之灵’--- 成名作

‘月光’--- 杨丽萍

杨丽萍

我最爱的舞蹈员，虽然认识的舞蹈员不多，但她是我最爱的一个，也是唯一一个。
认识她，是通过小学的舞蹈老师，田小芳老师，她模仿杨丽萍的舞蹈，‘雀之灵’。
从那次的接触，我就非常非常喜欢杨丽萍。
两年前的云南之旅，天时地利人和，我有机会去看了场她亲自编导的秀，‘云南映像’。

感动，热情，壮观，是我当时的感触。
所以就在忙碌之际，我搜了搜她的资料。
现在没什么时间写了，先发发几张她的照片吧。

Best show ever!!!!!

生日快乐 （Jo）

经过8个月的相处，同住；
历经240多天的谈话，无数个饭局；
我们相互勉励，互相支持；
从没有想过，我和你可以这么合拍，
也没有料到，你和我可以这么能聊。

今天，是你的日子，
漂亮的你，肯定过得有点伤感，但又有点开心。
伤感自己老了一岁，开心得到朋友们的祝福。

希望过了今天，你的人生坎坷会少一些；
磨难会顺一些，人生路会快乐些。

在10月13日的今天，
祝你生日快乐。

SHORT or LONG?

Short boyish hair or Long permed sexy one?

TIME WASTING

ok.. another 19 days.. i'll be freed.. but i needa fully utilise my time. however, i've wasted my weekends, i only spent like 3 hrs on design.. and im gonna be in dead shit.

Hopefully, start from monday, i'll have the 'working' spirit, wake up early in the morning, then work work work work until 5.30pm.. then rest, then spend another 2 hrs at night.

If i manage to do so, i think.. i might.. mayb.. hopefully get myself thru with a credit in this unit. (woohoo.. i'm being so positive and confident with myself.)
ok.. i've tried to reconnect some friends from s'pore, cos there is like 90%, i'll work for my intern end of this yr.. I do hope that it will be a good one for a start up.. mayb some help and some push on my weight losing programme, cos s'pore gals must be all fair fair and skinny skinny.. gals like me might not be as welcomed as those fair skinny ones..

BUT!! i got sexy boops, so.. hehe.. that will be an additional points for me.. and.. my weight lose plan is still in progress.. though slow.. but didn't stop.

wow.. imagine.. 52kg with a c cup, how sexy will that be? hiakhiakhiak~ (erm.. kinda far away from my study..)

haiz.. design, work, money, losing weight~ so many stuff needa be done. and also, quite some bad habit..

oh yeah, i diy my manicure yesterday, i had ten of my fingers done, but after one night, five of them fall off!!! sigh, cheap stuff just so not reliable. Me and jo recently are crazy with french manicure.. so i got my self a pack of cheap fake nails and stick it on my ugly original ones. It turn out quite classy, hmm.. think i gonna have french nails during cny..

later will go out have dinner with my dear pretty housemate, Joanne! having a simple quick short celebration for her birthday.. we r all 23!!!!! so damn old lar! argh.. 23 23 23.. old old old.. haiz haiz~
and im turning 24 real soon.. sigh~!~!~!~ @#$^#$^&$$#^*(((

anything lar.. sienz~

3.11a.m.

Im in uni~ yeah.. middle of the night. Printing some stuff for tomorrow's critique. Last night i was freaked out, being paranoid again, and thinking of giving up. But after a very long prayer, I feel better.

I guess, im so panic and stress is because i miss my dear handsome teacher too much.. (ergh.. didn't see him for ages.. lost count how long le..)

But, i manage to sit down, fixed my butt on my study chair for at least 2 hrs, finally.. i've worked out some stupid crap. (I kinda think i'm smart hey..) hahaha..

Gonna see him at 9 in the morning, with my crappy model, and my crappy drawings.. i should expect got scold by him, otherwise, it will be abnormal.. But, scolding = still got hope.. right? no scolding = excellent!! hahaha.. think positive positive positive..

oklar, finish printing le.. hafta go home, have a short nap, then draw again..

qiong qiong qiong~

SICK+PANIC+STRESS+COUNTDOWN

ok.. my deadline is coming soon, another 25 days..
but all my coursemates told me, if full on.. sure can de..
so~ from this day onwards, im fulling on..
design design design
presentation presentation presentation

focus focus focus~
GOOD LUCK to me..

hehe..
GBME!!!

Popping and Locking (Breakdance)

Im in love with this dance style...

A precious pic i found in facebook!!!

看到这张照片，很开心啊！！
中华小学第四校，六蓝班。哈哈~
勾起许多回忆，从小学开始，成绩就不是很出色，
天意弄人，老把我安排在好班。
从小学一二三年级的青班，
到小学四五六年级的蓝班；
从初一二三的孝班，
到高一二三的理忠。
这是十二岁的我，好像除了身材向横发展了点，皮肤差了点，
就没什么改变了。
回忆慢慢的浮现....

爱吃同学的便当；
缠着外公带我搭公共巴士上学；
教师节的玩闹；
考试作弊；
被同学用可乐瓶子打头；
被老师揪耳朵；
跟同学吵架；
用粉笔在桌上画清介线；
同学用我的牙刷刷鞋子；
吵架吵输了就哭；
第一次过马路，到对面店铺等爸爸接我的喜悦；
下课铃声一响，奔跑到小商店买五毛钱一碗的面；
二年级马来文不及格的恐惧；
跌破下巴，缝针，第二天包着一团布，同学围绕着，好奇的要我给他们看；
羡慕同学在贵贵的酒店开生日会；
羡慕同学有最新的笔盒等，文具；
第一次得到父母的同意，与同学去看电影；

好多哦！！！好开心！！
你们找得到我吗？嘿嘿~

小故事 （第二则）

《蜕变》- 每个人都是自己命运的建筑师

欧洲有一位艺术家，要画一幅耶稣的画像。由于耶稣是上帝的儿子，代表着神圣的形象，应该画得庄严肃穆，因此这位画家便四处寻找一位相貌很好的模特儿，并且完成了这幅千古佳作，受到举世的赞扬。

过了几年，有人提议，光有这幅惟妙惟肖的耶稣画像还不够，不能显现耶稣的伟大；如果再画一张魔鬼撒旦的像和此相比照，效果一定更好。可是面貌长得像魔鬼的人要到哪里去寻找呢？最后只好到监狱找一个面相凶恶的囚犯做对象。

当画家为囚犯画像时，这个囚犯突然掩面哭泣起来。画家就问他说：‘你怎么哭了呢？’
‘我是触景伤情，忍不住悲伤才哭的。’
‘什么事让你如此痛心呢？’
‘几年前我也曾经当你的模特儿，想不到数年后我又遇到了你，可是人生境遇却完全两样！’

原来这个囚犯就是先前充当耶稣画像的模特儿。
画家听了大吃一惊说：‘你的相貌怎么变得如此凶狠可怕呢？’
囚犯说，当时他得了这笔奖金，吃喝嫖赌，做尽坏事，甚至以身触法，坐进牢狱，相貌也因此变凶恶了。

相随心转，你的心可以让你变耶稣，也可以让你变撒旦，就端看你自己了。

老娘的第三次下厨~

嘿嘿~
真不知好歹，明明周三有份作业要交，今天老娘还兴致勃勃的把昨日的下厨故事一则写下。
昨夜，明月当空，（哇哈哈，也不知道有没有明月，反正只想挣个开场白。）
美女同屋与我心血来潮想自己做饭？
其实不是心血来潮，老娘是被逼得。哈哈哈~
同屋把土豆，牛肉，鸡蛋，菜圃，还有一个不知道什么名称的菜拿了出来。
她让老娘炒菜圃蛋，哈哈哈~真是胆大哦。我可是没炒过的唷。
但是基于想做出一点贡献的心态，我打肿了自己的脸，充了一回胖子。
三两下就把菜圃蛋炒好了。

这时，同屋的手机响了，而老娘我闲着没事，就开始帮她切土豆丝，（原本她切的是片，可老娘每吃过土豆片，而且觉得面积那么大，应该很难熟吧。）
切着切着，老娘神游了。就在不知道第几刀下去的时候，那一刹那，有一种感觉老娘会受伤，就在瞬间，哎呀！切到了！！嘿嘿~不叫，不闹，老娘很酷的向手指望了望，伊~~~没血哦。（老娘不是人？）
就在自己将要得意的认为自己只是切到皮的时候，这血好像懂人性一样的，哗啦哗啦的流出来。（哗啦啦啦啦啦，下雨了~~）
二话不说，先塞到嘴里再想。
冷静的，爬上楼，美女同屋在客厅看到我的样子，比手划脚的问：‘切到手啦？’
我很酷的点点头，（那手指还在嘴里呢。）
同屋的反应，表情，好像自己切到手一样。想必是三维立体病发作了。哈哈哈哈~

到了楼上，冲水，涂药膏，再贴胶布。
回到了厨房，继续切。
美女同屋看到了，又比手划脚的说：‘不用切了，等我来。’
想必是不好意思吧。我心想，现在已经八点啦，待会儿又有人来，还不赶快准备？
所以不加理会，自顾自的继续切。

等把所有的菜农好了以后，已经是八点半了。
炒了一盘菜谱蛋，什么什么菜炒牛肉丝，香菇肉酱土豆（其实是罐头炒土豆），浙醋‘排骨’（其实是牛肉）。
噢可，菜谱蛋，跟什么什么菜炒肉丝是我做的。香菇肉酱土豆跟浙醋‘排骨’是同屋的杰作。
来了一位朋友，像评审一样的坐下，拿起筷子，一个一个，一小口一小口的吃。
在还没发表评论前，老娘就放话：‘这可是我23年的人生中，第三次做菜哦。说话要经过大脑！！’
评论是：‘还可以吃。’
哈哈~虽然不是很好，但我已经很高兴了。
至少可以吃。不会吃死人。

ps：美女同屋的外婆很喜欢我，又一次邀我去她们家吃饭，但老娘摆架子，不去。她外婆一直问她，你朋友呢？你朋友呢？为什么不来！她会是个好媳妇！

喷饭吧？？搞笑吧？我跟这个71岁的老太太还挺聊得来的。唉~老娘是老了。连跟71岁的老人家都没代沟？？？不可思议！！
费解费解~

ARGH!!!

Its mid of September!!
Which means, crazy period is coming real real soon!!!!!

I have a book review that due tomorrow..
Guess what?? I've finished the book.. but.. i havent start writing it yet!!!!
How crazy that is?
And for my studio.. haiz.. dunno how to say!!
LAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Procastination!!!!! Stress!!!
woohoo~~ im so dead!!!
design design design.. lalalala (im goin crazy)

But guess wat? me and jo decided to undergo serious study and excersize plan.. hahaha
that starts from tomorrow!!!
ok.. lets doing.. COME ON!!! ASSIGNMENTS!!!
Im not afraid of you all!! NOT AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

《右手边》

静静地坐在你的身边
还会有多少这样的时间
我要迎着这窗外的光线
牢牢的记住你微笑的侧脸

#我说了离别不会伤悲
这是我对你唯一的欺骗
因为我最喜欢你的双眼
那么美 不适合掉眼泪

*你要好好的去飞
不需要对我想念
我会默默地留下右手边的座位
有一天 当你看过世界
再决定你降落的地点

而我也会继续地
奔驰在这长长的街
左手边是我的心
右手边没有谁
为了你再寂寞我都可以成全
因为我相信
说过了再见
一定会再见

一个特别的朋友介绍的特别的歌，一直说歌词很有意思。本来很懒得去搜的，但搜了以后，果然觉得歌词蛮特别的。只不过右手边，跟马来西亚不符合啊~（嘿嘿~是不是破坏了歌词的情意？）

Becoming Christian again.

For those who know me well, I've undergo baptism in 2006, after 3 yrs of struggle and suffers in Aus.. I've finally accept Him, as my savior and the only God in my life.

My father was and still a very keen christian, but my mum is not. I wonder is that the reason stumbled my father from goin to church. To be frank, i've been to kch's church also, and i've been to Aus's church.. its totally different. Some church just give u a very good feeling, but some just dun.. I prefered Aus's church, i dunno the specific reason, i just like it base on my feelings.

I think, im not a very very holy type of believer. I don't talk christianity with friends, i dont drag them to church, cos i noe.. this is not the best way of doing it. Before i believe, i dislike people doing this to me..

'Golar, its fun!'
'No car..'
'We can drive you.'
'Dun feel like going.'
'Golar, got free food to eat.'
'...'
hmm.. this is the most common conservation ive heard when my friends try to bring me to church.. 'free food'.. hahaha~
sorry if i offended anyone of you.. its just my feelings.. i appreciate their effort, but i just dun like the feeling of being forced.

I owes think that religious is not a good thing when i was younger, cos most wars happened in history, majority are because of religion.

but my life in Aus, was so hard, and bumpy.. from chicken pox to operation, from housemate's conflict to losing friends, from quarrel to some legal issues, from discrimination to car stolen, almost every year, every semester.. there will be a dramatic issue happen to me.. all my coursemates were so amazed by my stay in Perth.. and owes asked for more stories..

Under these stories, i cant recall how, when and why.. I turned myself to God.. seek for help, and confessed my sins to him. I believe he is the one who carried me when im having those issue.. he's the one who support me silently and offered help to me without asking any repay. I finally, open my heart to become a christian, to commence my christianity life. I've joined the 40 days of purpose campus.. and after that, i always go to church.. and finally.. i've decided to baptise..

its a hard job to turn a non-believer into one.. in my life.. i've turn one man from non-believer to believer, but he never go to church, and he is not yet ready to devote himself into christianity life. I've spent 5 yrs to persuade him.. slowly, tell him stories.. affect him by myself.. at last! he starts to approach God by himself.. Im glad.. and happy for him.. at least, he starts to believe.

However, since dunno when, i seldom go to church le.. and i start to have bad habits and wasn't able to control myself well.. i think.. for certain period.. me myself was manipulated by devils.. i've done bad stuffs.. and now.. i feel sinful.. and everyday pray for forgiveness.. luckily.. i confessed to Him.. and bcos of Andy, i start to flip through bible, and start to keep contact with God, start to write my confession diary..

Hopefully, from now on.. i can start my christianity journey without fail.

God Bless You all~~

给自己的小故事一则

《智慧》

从前有个又穷又愚的人，在一夕之间突然富有了起来；
但是有了钱，却没有智慧，不知道要如何处理这些钱。

他向一位和尚诉苦，和尚便开导他说：‘你一向贫穷没有智慧，现在有了钱，不贫穷了，可是依然没有智慧。近来城内信佛的人很多，有大智慧的僧人着实不少，你出千把两银子，别人就会教你智慧之法。’

那人就去城里，逢人就问：‘哪里有智慧可买？’
有位僧人告诉他：‘你倘若遇到疑难的事，且不要急急处理，可先朝前走七步，然后再退后七步，这样进退三次，智慧便来了。’

‘智慧’这么简单吗？那人听了将信将疑。当夜回家，推门进屋，昏黑中发现妻子居然与人同眠，顿时怒起，把出刀来便想行凶。

这时，忽然想起白天买来的智慧，心想：‘何不试试？’
于是他前进七步，后退七步各三次，然后点亮了灯光再看时，竟然发现那与妻同眠者原来竟是自己的老母亲！这位暴发户有幸买到了智慧，避免了一场杀母大祸。这智慧，说穿了就是‘冷静’。

而西方民间流行的办法是：‘人嗔怒时便心里默数数目，小怒从一数到十，大怒则数到百以至千，数毕后再采取行动。

冷静提供了思考空间，大凡头脑一发热，思考的空间就少了，也就容易失去理智，意气用事，以至无端动怒，将人生带往万劫不复的地步！

《手》

那是你的手 曾经轻轻安抚我眉头
但也是它甩开了我的手
洩了气的气球 两颗心在萎缩的温柔
你始终只低着头 紧握你拳头
透过这窗口 有人会猜我们是朋友
最普通的朋友 甚至不点头
在记忆的上游 那是什么揪着我心头
是不是你那双我熟悉的手

但抱过你的手 还能放在谁背后
你想过没有 我们为何会牵手
是什么理由 然后没有然后
甚至不再挥挥手

那是你的手 曾经把我捧在你胸口
但今天以后它不会再敲我门口
有一股腥红的哀愁
缓缓地流出卡着我喉头
你远远的抱着手肘 只站在外头

但抱过你的手 还能放在谁背后
你想过没有 我们上一次牵手
是什么时候 然后没有然后
甚至不再挥挥手

抱过你的手 还能放在谁背后
是什么时候 我们上一次牵手
但抱过你以后 有什么已被没收
你想过没有 我们第一次牵手
是什么借口 然后没有然后
甚至不再挥挥手
分手也不需理由

Last night~

Las night was a relaxing night.
Jo went to her aunt's place for dinner, she did invite me..
But my ass was too lazy to leave my chair/bed..
She left at ard 7..

***2 hrs later***
She came back.. and came to my room..
I was watching 'kang xi lai le'..
We had some chit-chat.. and we browse through facebook and friendster together..

We both were always not the type of gals that like to browse through pics of others..
but tonight.. we did it...
And suddenly, we saw one fren.. We both was so shock that she actually went clubbing!!!
Make up oso.. and i screamed.. and said :' oh S**T, even she go clubbing.. me shu liao lar!!!!!'
Joanne was laughing and suddenly, she had this serious face.. turn around and look at me..
'To be frank, u r really shu lar.. u r 23 leh, have to do sth that u can do now, wear sth that u can wear now.. if not.. when u turn to 30.. u wont be able to wear anymore!!'

YEAH! Jo was right.. i shud be wearings sexy clothes, cute ones, classy ones.. but definitely not the 'la tak' ones.. hahaha!!!!
But im so uncomfortable with my fats!! And i dun feel like letting some guys outside to look at my 'ru gou'.. or its normal to show them publicly? Shud i feel proud that im able to show what i've got? hmm.. Shud change my attitude..

But luckily, my diet programme is still on progress, though kinda slow.. but if i continue with what i'm doing now, hopefully.. i'll get rid another 5 kgs by next chinese new year..

mayb i shud learn from some kch's frens.. or my china's frens.. or even singaporean frens, they were so enthu in losing weights.. they used crazy ways of doing it.. we owes said.. use healthy ways use healthy ways.. but for my case.. like stucked in this weigh for over 4 months le.. its kinda/very depressing and discouraging lor..
some frens said 'exercise more lor'
i tried.. last time went jogging 3 times a week, and joined body balance, body combat all these.. but my weight still the same leh.. however, when ppl look at me, they'll think i've lose weight.. i think that's bcos im firmed, but not losing fats.. and the most important thing is, i've gained muscle!!!!! gained muscle, lose some fat.. but 62 with muscle.. wont that look.. erm.. big sized???? so i stop, cos i was so disgusted with the muscle i've gained on my thighs..

mayb i shudn't have jogged, i shud just swim.. or walk..
yeah.. a web friend told me to walk up hills.. walk up hills for 1 hr.. at least 3 times a week.. mayb i shud try that~

sometime, i think gals are kinda sad.. lose weight lar, whitening lar, plastic surgery lar, nice clothing lar, nice nails lar, nice heels lar, nice bags lar.. FOR WHAT????

'Make yourself look pretty lar!' my mum...
'Then?' me
'Ergh.. 女为悦己者容' mommy
'hmmm' me..
'i don't want to be display vase' me..
'u can be pretty and wise in the same time!' mimi
'oh..' me
'HAIYA!!! u r hopeless lar, dun even think like a gal!' pretty mom

whenever i think of this conversation.. i'll laugh.. 3 yrs before, i wasn't worry... i never think of anything abt my appearance.. but this cny.. my father voiced out le...

'mei ar, u r undergo trainings to be an architect right?' papa
'ergh.. yeah~~'
'do u noe that, appearance of an architect also very important?' papa
'erm.. i think so.'
'not think so.. its IMPORTANT! ppl judge ur profession by ur outlook, imagine that if u go out to meet client with those fat and big t-shirts, man's shorts.. its just not.. persuasive lor.' papa
'...'
'u have to wear out ur style.' papa
'i dun go c client lor.. i'll everyday stay in office and work.'
'architect works as an agent, how can an agent not meeting client???' pa
'...'
'exercise more lar, make urself healthy and look good.' pa
'...'

hmmm.. even my father... WA!!!! scary la..
when i was in high school.. i remember there was once.. i wanna lose weight.. that time was 56.. and i wanna cut off my rice intake during dinner.. my father's reaction was..
'NO.. U HAVE TO EAT!!! WHERE GOT NO EAT DINNER ONE????'

now.. when i eat rice..
'MEI AR.. U SURE U WAN TO EAT RICE? FAT WOR!!!!'

haiz~~

昨日，今日，明日

昨日
‘月到中秋分外明，每逢佳节倍思亲。’
昨天是团圆的象征，是家人团聚的日子。
因为生活，本分，原则，我被迫在异乡，在一个没有家人的地方，过了一个没有亲人的中秋。
往年，我对中秋并没有特别的情愫，但不知怎地，今年感触特别多。
还记得儿时，我都是跟父母过节的。
独生女的我，一个人玩着十几个灯笼，局外人都觉得我挺孤单的。
但我并不感到孤单，因为我在父母的身边。他们的爱，填补了没有兄弟姐妹的空虚。
昨晚，我跟我的好朋友，兼美女同屋，过了一个很特别的中秋。
没有吵闹，没有喧哗，没有丰盛的晚餐。两包泡面，一碗烫青菜，一盘炒肉碎。
满心欢喜的享受者，闲聊着。
喜？

今日，
学习周的第一天，早上并没有赖床，但也没有很好的运用自己的时间。
因为昨日的运动，导致今日的疼痛。
呵呵~太久没有运动了。筋骨都老化咯。
重新调整了心情，正化了计划，近日开始，要慢慢的向新方向起步。
容我允许自己，再懒一天，再享受一天。
上帝的宽容，我真的感受到了。
我一而再的背弃，再而三的离弃，祂还是没放弃我。
回顾这5年，混混噩噩的，懒懒散散的，散而漫的。
大五了，怎么过的？
糊里糊涂的就上到了大五，不是神迹，那是什么？

悲观，暴躁是我的标记。
记得状元（希望没写错）曾经说过，我有女侠的性格。
到了澳洲6年，暴躁已经被磨了些许，女侠性格荡然无存。
有的，还是暴躁，悲观。呵呵~
奈？

明日，
新的开始？
还是旧的延续？
迷？

~Hard to understand meh~

Hope the way i write can manage to lead u guys to imagine the scene that i've experienced during work..

Im a kind of person that have weird thinkings or emotions that will pop up in my mind frequently, I mean REALLY FREQUENT.. I can be sad at this minute, than happy on next.. so.. one day.. (i cant remember which day liao.. 1-2 weeks ago gua) when i was working.. we have a full house that day. There was a table filled with 12 women.. TWELVE!!!!

You wont be able to imagine the noise that they've made.. i can see a two seaters table beside was shouting to each other cos they can hardly hear if they lower down..

My mum ever said.. 3 women = 500 ducks quacking in the same time.. IMAGINE.. 12 women.. 6000 ducks quacking at the same time!!!!!

My ears were suffering.. and i cant even what the other customer was ordering.. ends up i shout at them, and they shout back at me..

WORSE than pasar malam lar..

okok.. that's not the point.. so~ these women sat there from 7 till 9.30.. (gals noe lar.. gossip gossip gossip gossip.. complains complains complains...) and finally.. they are leaving.. half drunk, very high.. laugh like there's no one ard looking at them..

I hate big tables, y? Cos big tables mean, there a lot! Hell LOTS to clean up, their wine glasses, their water glasses, their water jars.. their plates, spoons, forks, bowls, sizzling pans.. bla bla bla..

When i start to clean their table, i realized they've left a lot of rice.. and when i saw those rice.. a phrase poped into my mind ‘谁知盘中餐，粒粒皆辛苦。’I was thinking to use this phrase to write a educational post that teach us not to waste food..

So, i think that it might be good if i take a photo of those leftovers, and post it over here.. cos sometime, visual educations are more powerful and brings greater impact compare with verbal ones. Hence, I start to clean up all those emptied plates and bowls, glasses and cups.. then i carry this plate of rice with one of my hands, and carry those sizzling pans and plates with the other.

I put those emptied ones into a black box (which wat we waitresses will do when cleaning, then ppl in the kitchen will carry the black box and wash the contents).. Ppl in the kitchen was bz with their own task.. Iverson the chef, was bz with the special fried rice, Jeffery (my boss) was bz seasoning lemongrass beef rolls, Ben (yi's bf) was bzing preparing the entrees, viet guy (i dunno his name) was bzing slicing carrot.. and *** (i dunno his name, and i dunno where he's from) was bzing washing the veges, Yi was bzing washing the contents in the black box..

Carrying the plate that filled with rice, i walk out from the kitchen, head to my bag and bring out my handphone.. Went back into the kitchen and stand in front of a big rubbish bin.. 'KA CHA'.. pics taken.. Just when i wanna have a deep thought on how to construct this post.. I realized there was an abnormal silent in the kitchen..

Slowly, i look up.. Yi was standing in front of me.. with her big eyes..

***2 seconds later***

Yi：‘小胖，你在拍什么？’

Me：‘呃...饭。’

The silence was so uncomfortable.. i start to look ard.. Iverson, holding his cooking shovel, jefferey holding one piece of lemongrass beef roll, Ben, holding his two pieces of spring rolls, Viet guy, holding the knife, *** carrying a half washed cabbage..

ALL STUNT and LOOK AT ME!!!!

***3 seconds later***

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA!!!!

The kitchen filled with laughters..

' Are you crazy? why are you taking photos of leftovers?' said jeffery

' Xiao Pang, u alright there?' Yi

' What happened to you? Fever?' Ben

' Cmei.. you ok?' Viet guy.

' U hungry is it? I cook for you lar!' Iverson

*** stays quiet.. but i can c his face.. and in his eyes.. i think he saw a maniac

I really dunno how to react..

I quickly pour the rice into the bin, and put the plate into black box.. and ran away from the kitchen..

I was thinking of trying to explain what im doing, but i think its kinda.. hard.. cos none of them blog.. and none of them are as sentimental as me..

sigh~

No one noes me..

Anyway.. 谁知盘中餐，粒粒皆辛苦啦！！

~轰炸~

今天的课，终于让我感觉到被轰炸的感觉。

周末做了些设计，虽然量少，但我觉得质量还不错，所以信心半满的去找我那可爱兼帅气的老师了。（老得来又有点味道的那种。）

谁知道，好死不死，不是正的老师看我，而是他那年轻的亚洲女助手。

一坐下来，她说想了解我的idea，可能是紧张的原因，我口吃了，了解我的朋友应该知道，我有三寸不烂之舌，口吃？真的很难想象会发生在老娘的身上！

我很努力的从头开始解释我的功课，可从她的表情，我看得出来。。。她。。听不懂！
啊！！ 该怎么办？该怎么运用老娘的口才跟半吊子的英文去跟她解释呢？
最后的最后，我无奈了，我开始沉默。。。年已23载的我，第二次被轰炸而无言以对的时刻。但不同的是，我并不伤心，也没哭泣，就只是无奈。

因为她提到的问题，是我有考虑到的，只是我想把大方向定下了，再解决这些细节问题。
就当我放弃的时候，帅哥老师来了，女助手把我的问题告诉老师...而且...

我觉得她是故意的，因为老师有问我的原意是不是‘这样’？但那女的硬生生地跟老师说我的原意是‘那样’！唉~就不能给老娘留点面子吗？？

就当我的情绪正从无奈走向绝望的时候，我突然灵机一动，问了帅气老师，可不可以‘这样’+ ‘那样’？
嘿嘿~我的灵机扭转乾坤似的，把地狱变成了天堂！！把不可以变成了可以！！把不可能变成了可能！！

得到了许可与认同，心里的喜悦溢了出来。
帅气老师走了之后，女助手终于显出她的关心了，临离开之前还问我：‘还有什么问题吗？’
长气且不愿这么就放过机会的我，马上往我画的鬼画符看了看，再看看她，随便掰了一个问题，谁知这一问，又把设计的另一个主要疑问问出了答案和方向。

哈哈哈，不知道老娘走了什么狗屎运。反正就是他娘的好啊！！！！

~开心~

哈哈哈哈~~

Malaysia really boleh le lar~~

ok.. First i would like to emphasize that.. i'm not that patriotic k?

but.. i really wanna apologize for how i have misconducted my friends in m'sia..

i once ever said that..:'guys! noe wat? someone told me before that proton's sales in aus is even lower than porche!! terrible leh?'

ehem hem~~ i would like to say.. I'M SORRY! cos its actually not!!!

why do i change my statement? its bcos, since i came back from kch on the 14th of july.. i've saw this beloved proton's/perodua.. hmm not sure which is whose.. for like more than five times!!! FIVE leh!!! can u imagine???

First time, on my way to pick jo up.. its GEN-2, one of my fav of proton/perodua's product.. haha..

then..

later..

Another GEN-2 i saw when i went to the petrol station at night.. (not the same day tho)
Again, a GEN-2 in front of my house.. (on my way to school)

again again again, GEN-2 in Harvey Norman

Savvy in Carousel..

hahaha.. i took all these photos within 1 week.. some of them were in the car while i took it, i have to pretend that i was taking sth else.. if not.. i might get punched or scold if they found out..

i'm glad to c these vehicles around, cos this proves that GEN-2 is a car that really able to attracts consumers in Perth.. no matter why, there are still some attractions on this car.. as for Savvy.. hmm.. i wonder why.. hahaha~~

Malaysia Boleh!!!!

ps: Drivers are all local.. not Asian o~~

Today~

Its 12.29am now, and Im so excited that i cant go to sleep.. y? hahaha.. bcos i've got a new toy for myself!!! i dun wanna share it over here cos its kinda like a secret to my parents.. i dun wan, and i also cant let them noe what i've got for myself today.

Anyway, i'm kinda happy with this toy as it has brighten up my life and mood for this moment and i think it will also be a I have so many topics to blog about.. and i've tried to compile it into one blog.. but it is tooooo.. random.. i dunno how to connect it into one streamline. so.. i've choose one happy topic to blog abt for today.

~2nd September~

As you all know, i've been working in a vietnamese restaurant for like.. ergh.. (argh.. i think my tofu brain comes back le..) i cant remember how long.

Anyway, I knew this girl from china called Yi, she is from Guang Xi (one of the provinces of china) and she got a stable bf who is also in china. She was planning to get married in this september, but.. its just not her year.. she lost her passport! I remember sometime in mid june, she was so pissed and sad and complaint a lot to me thru msn about how she lost her bag.. That day, as usual, she went to the restaurant at five.. (she holds the key of the restaurant.) left her back on the counter, and starts all the usual preparations of dinner shift. When iverson came in, she went out the kitchen and was thinking of changing to her work clothes, her bag was gone!!! So as her passport and everything!!!

That's why, she cant go back to china as planned for the wedding ceremony. Moreover, a plan of rest for 3 months vanished.

So, she waited in Perth for the renewal of her passport, Embassy of China told her that her passport will be ready in two weeks time. But.. till now, there's no sign of her passport.. oh dear!! She and her bf manage to maintain a LDR for almost a year. She awaits to see her bf.. but.. it just didn't turn out right.

So initialy, the plan was like that:

1. Go back in june, have fun for 3 months.

2. While in China, held a wedding with her bf.

3. After 3 months, she and her bf will come back to perth together.

Due to the lost of her passport...

The initial plan was distorted wholly. She wait for her bf to come over, and postponed their wedding.

I pity her alot! Cos she.. somehow.. seems to be quite lonely, no close friends (bcos she's straightfoward, worse than me!!), no guys' friends.. (i think she is trying very hard to avoid/ignore opportunities that will break this relationship.)..

But.. in September, her bf.. known as ben (same pronounciation as stupid in mandarin.) finally arrived!!! To my surprise, he is kinda of.. out of my expectation.

In my mind, i imagined him as:

1. Fair (Cos china guys owes seems to be fairer in compare with m'sia or s'pore)

2. Tall

3. Strong

4. Good talker

5. Cool (cos Yi is quite cool)

But.. it came out to be..

1. Tanned

2. Tall.

3. SKINNY (so skinny that i just cant take it!!! better than abu tho.. if u noe who he is..)

4. Quiet (at first i tot he is, but i think he shud b quite talkative/funny.. if he noes u more)

5. Funny

So.. overall, he seems like a good guy. He listened to Yi, and treats her well. In front of us, he is owes the one that is tame, loyal and so on.. (mayb some of you will think that he is a 'small white face') but to me.. Yi worth his love.

He gave up everything in China... I mean EVERYTHING~~ his friends, his job, his family (the most important one.. yet, china's family owes prefered their kids to live their life oversea..) because of Yi.. some of you might think he is stupid.. but for me.. why not? First and for most, you'll have a better income here, you'll experience different lifestyle and different culture, you have the chance to expose yourself to a different world.. why not? The most importantly is, the gal that u sacrificed for, worth it!

so.. I went to work on the 2nd of september as usual.. with jo.. and we realised that it was his birthday. Iverson bought a birthday cake (cheesecake... yummy) from the shop adjacent to ours.. I was very excited.. not bcos of its ben's birthday, but because of the cake! hahaha~~

It looks really good yeah?

To my disappointment, it doesn't taste really good.. and i got the largest piece bcos this stupid iverson say:

'给小胖最大块的，她肯定吃得完。'

I never asked for the largest piece, cos i was filled with 2 pieces of chicken wings and 1 rice paper roll, and 3 pieces of spring rolls before having the cake.. I kept on say NO!!!!

But they avoided my NOs.. and gave me the largest one..

I end up finishing the fruits topping, and fed the rest to Mr. Dustbin~ (I think Mr. Dustbin was happy with the cake... duh~~) But i was kinda paiseh.. bcos i threw the cake away in front of the birthday boy~ will that bring any unlucky sign?? I hope they are not supertitious or watever.. haiz~~

Anyway, I'm very happy for them.. cos.. haha~ in chinese's old say.. 有情人终成眷属~

Yi.. treasure your love wor.. may God bless you both~

From: Little Fat!

Merdeka!!!!!

~11.45p.m.~

Hmm.. Actually, I'm not quite sure am I qualified to introduce my home country, Malaysia.. Cos since I study abroad.. I really, sort of, somehow.. apart from my home physically, as well as mentally. But, today is a special day.. it's Malaysia's 51st Birthday.. so, as a Malaysian-Chinese, I think I shud, or am motivated to.. blog sth abt my home.. Malaysia.

Ok.. from broader perspective.. our country is here........

hmm.. sorry abt the mini.. cos my web speed take ages to load gd quality images.. pls try ur best to find the red circle that i've edited on this world map.. and that's where we are.. MALAYSIA!!!

ok.. zoom in.. and this is us.. MALAYSIA!

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12.36am (01.09.2008)

I've waited the my connection to upload one of my image... for at least 30mins!!!! And i can't even post this blog on time!!@!@!@ its 1st of september now!!!! argh!!!!!!!

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12.40am

hmm.. I'm kinda bo sim to wait and no heart to blog liao.. i wanna go watch my movie le...

Anyway..

Happy Belated 51st Birthday!!!

Weirdo

Last night, after work, which is around 8.

Yeah, we only have two customer yesterday, 1 take away and 1 dine in. (what a night!)

Yi, one of my fren in work place, said its a waste if we go home now.

I reckon she and iverson and her bf is damn hungry, so they wanna go for supper.

I rushed home, took a bath, and bring along my poor sick jo to meet them up in Northbridge. (chinatown)

And that means, i've missed the closing ceremony! YEAH!! I've missed both opening ceremony and closing ceremony.. and i still claim that i love china! 

While we were having supper, we suddenly decide to pay a visit to John, another tawainese chef in our restaurant. 

So we finished at around 10.30pm.. and we went to visit him.

'What happened to him?' if you were wondering.. 

ok, he 'accidentally' cut his little finger with palang 'dao' when he was working in a farm. 

But hold on, he didn't chop off his finger lar, just that he zhun zhun chop off his 'jing' in the finger. 

So he undergo an operation to reconnect his finger's jing with the arm's one.. severe leh.. 

We went to his house, surprisingly, his house is sooooo clean and tidy. I cannot imagine guy like him can be so organized.. 

But just when i was thinking to praise him for his well organized homey living place, jo told me that this is all because of his sister. 

'No wonder la.'.. hehe..

Then we all sat down in his living room, and start to chit chat.. while they are toking, i was thinking of watching tv cos he has this 'bowl' that can receive tvs from china and taiwan. I quickly turn to channel CCTV-10.. and it was broadcasting one of my favourite show 'bai jia jiang tan'.. 

This show is about china's history, they invited professors from various great university in china to give a talk on certain point of china's history. 

When i was about to drink my lemon lime bitter and have a good time of myself... suddenly..

Yi:' mei! why are you looking at this weird old man talking? its boring lar.'

me:'no it is not boring, you'll see, listen to the histor.'

Iverson:'You are so so china lar, where got people watch this show one?'

me:'.....'

Yi:' Yalor, watching an old man toking? it's so boring.'

John:' mei! you are so old! lets change channel.'

me: '....'

He grabbed the controller from me and quickly change to Channel V.. i cant say anything cos its in his place.. 

Sigh.. then i said:' dun watch channel v lar, change to phoenix.. lets watch news.'

luckily, they agreed. 

Phew~~ 

I'm not angry or unhappy or wat so ever. But i just wonder, am i really that boring? I ever ran a test online, and the result turn out to be i'm mentally 52 years old. 

That explains everything. I can talk to my parents like friends.. I have lots of common thinking with them. Unbelievable.. my father is like 64 and my mum is like 56.. wow.. i dun have any communication with this couple leh.. 

hmm.. lets list out some proves:

1. I don't like pubbing and clubbing, cos its very very noisy, besides, i'm not confident with my body and dance skills. So i normally wont dance. And i DONT LIKE alcohol, even i've tried to like it. 

2. I prefer sit down in a cafe or fine restaurant, have a drink and a good talk with my friends.

3. Whenever I talk with jo, we are like discussing serious stuff.

4. I never talk about fashion, hair, make-ups.. but i do gossip about girls..

5. I'm very afraid of themed park, i dun dare to ride all those funky stuffs.. cos i'm scared of unwanted accidents.

6. I always don't want to try new stuffs, like food, clothes.. whenever i found a good restaurant or nice food, i'll always stick to the one for certain time. (altered when the thing is introduced by friends.)

7. ...

8. ...

hmmm.. 

Conclusion:

I'm a old man! 

Random

Today, when i was working..

I ate Tom Yum Bee Hoon..

then, one of my colleague---> Capella said:

'Cmei ar, can u eat like a girl?'

I was stunt at first, then agreed:

'I'm not a girl, i'm actually a guy!'

woohoo~~ yeah.. i really think inner me, i'm like a guy..

1. I'm more fierce than guys.

2. I walk, I talk, I eat, I wear, I laugh.. like guys..

3. I don't like to look at mirrors.

4. I don't like girly stuff (but!! i like cute stuffs)

5. My mum says i'm helpless and hopeless.

6. hmmm....

7. hmmm....

So! In conclusion, I'm a guy...

Then! I tried to act like girl..

When i finished work at ard 11.. I rushed home, and look at the mirror.. try to act sexy and more girly.. 

****5 mins later****

I cant find my sexy look with the fatness surrounded my body...

I cant be girly with my short hair and ugly sleeping wear...

I only found one thing.......

That is....

I GOT WRINKLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WRINKLES WRINKLES WRINKLES WRINKLES~~~~~

I'm only 23 leh (tho its not that young when compare to 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22)

But.... I got wrinkles around my puffy blacked eyes....

so sad.. that makes me more like a guy, (guy with female's fat figure, short hair.. and wrinkles around the eyes)

so ugly la~~ so, i quickly put on the eye cream that i bought few months ago.. hoping that it will have instant effect.. but the result turns out to be a disappointment.. hmm..

so i start to focus on other parts of my face.. (i only look at my face cos that's the only part with less fat.. oh yeah.. and my hands and my feet or foot? cant remember which is plural which is singular le..) then i start to focus on the pimple's scar, and black heads, and unshaved eyebrows... i suddenly feel....

SIEN~~ sigh.. better dun look at my face le..

So i start to look ard my wardrobe and find some girly clothes.. but i found out.. besides dark brown, black, grey, white.. and 2 reds.. done! no more girl's clothes...

So i gave up, and starts to look ard my room.. walau.. messy and nth girly besides some small soft toys and bed filled with 3 pillows ( which i think that signifies girly).. then no more..

so i went downstair, and count my shoes.. hmmm.. only 3 pairs of high heeled that can be sexy.. but others is like ah ma.. i gave up again.. and went back to my room and start to look ard for accessories.. hmm.. 1 ring, 1 bracelet, 1 pair of earring, countless of simple straight hair bands (its useless now since i'm having short hair) and.. that's it!

what else can i do? nth.. so~ i gave up.. and start my readings.. surfing.. browsing.. listening to music.. 

In conclusion... 

I'm really helpless and hopeless..

I'm a man!

梦想

人因梦想勇敢，伟大！

但也因梦想无法达成而懊恼，伤感。

许多人花了一辈子的时间追逐自己的梦想。

我想，这些人是幸福的；

只因他们有梦去想。

天心，我的朋友；

最近已朝着自己的梦想迈前了一小步。

这是难能，且可贵的。

希望她能早日抵达梦想之地；

找到自己的一片天，

当第一个梦想达成时；

也就是开辟另一个梦的始。

加油哦！天心。

你行的！

在这里，献上我无尽的祝福～

看后感

今天比较空闲，（呃，其实很多东西要赶，但我就是这样，不能专注一件事情太久，除了睡觉。）

最近连看电影都不能太专注了，就连看电影也要开网页，读读人家的博客，看看一些网上教程，然后玩一玩google earth，吃一吃东西，打一打电话，一部1个半小时的电影，花了我将近4个小时才看完！太强了！

好，说说正题吧。

今天看的是哪出呢？

Untraceable (中文叫网络杀机）

彰显个性已成为时下第一要务，博客、个人网页铺天盖地，网络犯罪日益频繁。

从黑客、身份盗用到网络恐怖组织，纷繁复杂的美国联邦调查局内部，早就为此专门成立了网络犯罪专案组。

FBI特工循着蛛丝马迹，清查所有疑似案件，在掌握确凿证据后，立即使用卫星定位系统锁定嫌犯所在地，然后只待警方出马。

没人能逃脱他们的掌心。 

又是一个繁忙的夜晚。特工珍妮弗·马什（黛安·莲恩）和年轻的搭档（科林·汉克斯）正埋头于一堆可能犯案的追查，却得到一条匿名线报，一个网址为killwithme.com的网页似乎有些不寻常。珍妮弗随意点开网页，首页俨然是糁人骷髅头和血红文字，点击进入之后，竟然发现了一个中年男子被捆绑、在血泊中奄奄一息的直播视频！极度逼真的受害场景显然不是恶作剧所为，他们很快发现：不仅服务器IP地址无法追踪，而且凶案现场还有仪器控制着受害者的死亡速度！也就是说，网页的点击率越高，受害者死得也就越快！ 
好奇的公众疯狂地访问网页，一个，两个，受害者日渐增多。无计可施的FBI高层甚至不得不召开记者发布会，希望用“所有访问者都是共犯”的警告能让公众停止疯狂的行为。然而这警告反而成了变本加厉的催化剂，发布会后，又一个受害者在仅仅20分钟之后惨死！下一个，也许眨眼间就一命呜呼！时间就是性命，珍妮弗必须在最短时间内带着麾下警队抓获虚拟世界里无迹可循的杀人天才。他们并不知道，那个阴鹜的猎杀者已经定下了下一个目标--珍妮弗！（出处：新浪网页）

本人实在自己打片子的内容，所以就从新浪网页复制粘贴了。

这部电影的结局，当然是依正常伦理跑啦，邪不能胜正，坏人一命呜呼了，好人活下来了。

既普通，也特别。

普通是普通在电影的拍摄手法，死了一个好人，没有高潮迭起，紧张度就像平稳的直线上升一直到最后。

特别，是特别在剧情。网络杀人，我还是第一次听到过。从访客的点击率来决定一个人的存活时间。我还真不知道有这回事情。

而且，片里还说了，如果坏人被捕了，他们亦可以寻着法律的漏洞，而脱离杀人犯的名义。详细原因我不知道，但我相信这是可能的。因为他并没有直接杀人，杀人的是访客。访客的好奇心杀了人！

哼～这个坏人很聪明，既能逃过政府的网络追击，又能想出这么多的杀人方法。不错！我喜欢。就想SAW系列，我很欣赏编剧的创作能力，能想到这么多既恶心，又特别的杀人方法。

大家，对不起啦！我就是这么变态，爱看恶心片，又爱看恐怖片。虽然觉得恶心，但还是犯贱的爱看。哈哈～

不好意思，又跑题了。

片里有说明坏人变坏人的原因，这位年仅20的变态杀手，原本有个美满的家庭。父亲是有名的化学教授。自杀原因我不知道，因为我不是很专心。反正他父亲自杀的时候，很轰动。电视台播了他自杀的全过程。

吞枪自杀然后掉下桥底。儿子无法接受父亲的离世，更无法接受世人对他父亲离世时抱着好玩好看的心情去评论。

从而对社会怀恨，他所杀的人，间接的直接的与父亲死有关联。其中一个就是报道父亲死亡的记者。我觉得这个人想不开是正常的，但为什么会演变成这么极端呢？双亲没了，没有亲人了，没有爱人，甚至没有朋友的情况下才会这样吧？

看到这，你们当中或许有人会说：‘哎呀，只是一部电影，需要那么感慨位了它写文章吗？’ 

错了！第一：我不是感慨，我是无聊。第二：我只是在抒发，在思考人性。第三：我实在很想写东西。嘿嘿～

最近父亲进步了很多。他会发短信了，可见高科技真的逼着人学啊。不学不行啊，连我父亲这么老顽固的老人家，都开始委屈自己，学发短信。学开关电脑。唉～～ 

到底是社会影响了人，还是人类影响了社会？

无解～ （想起去年读的哲学了～）

Las blog for today~

ok.. why english? cos i'm lazy to type chinese.. (simple answer, hehe)

so.. ah chien.. u said my blog is frequently updated, u noe why? Bcos i rather spend time blogging then studying.. hahaha~~ simple reason. 

but guys, noe wat? i just realized i got so many work to be done... ARGH!!!! so many!!!! so many stupid readings, i hate readings.. i like dreaming. hehe~ 

so.. how leh? bo bian lo.. do the readings lor, write the precis lor.. do a lot of sketches lor.. i dun ask much, pass will do. so i wont stress until i die.. if not.. i sure will die one.. (die means sleep) 

some ppl told me if i blog abt politics, will hav more ppl read my blog.. but.. i dun like politics leh.. to be frank, i'm brainless when it comes to malaysia's politics issue. when i'm in perth, i'm like orang ulu, noe nth abt politics, noe nth abt entertainment news, noe nth abt newest songs.. even joanne is better than me, at least she now how tax works in australia. haha~ i only noe how economic's issue affect their architectural practice.. and bcos i've skipped one of my lecture last week.. i've missed how sri lanka's architectural practice's income is far more better than australia's. 

Clement told me that, their income is like.. for example, if australia got 100 per hour, than sri lanka is like 25 per hour. (till here.. u guys must ask, that is like 4 times lower!!!!)

HOLD ON!! LISTEN FIRST.............

the main thing is, their life expense is like so much more lower. If a meal in Australia is 10 per meal, then their meal will be like 1 per meal..  which is 10 times lower. 

how abt tax? in australia, if ur annual income is below 6000, there will be no tax. but the thing is, to be frank, u'll not be able to survive with 500 per month. so normally, annual income ranged ard 25000 is considered very very damn low. However, when ur income is between 6001-15000, u'll be taxed 15%, and hmm.. i forgot what is above le.. but min 20% lor.. 

conclusion, when compare with malaysia, australia's tax is soooooooooooo damn high~ and the life expense is soooooooooo damn high. What can u earn? what can u save? Joanne has been working for like almost 2 yrs.. i dun think she has saved much. (but i dunno the exact number la, cos i wont ask one)

i'm quite sure sri lanka's tax will definitely be lower than aus's. 

hmm.. hmm...

now i feel like working in sri lanka le.. hahahaha~ 

if i wanna earn more and save more.. i need to work full time that is taxed, and another part time that is not tax.. which means, no contract, no epf, no public holiday, no nth. 

pls dun say anything.. 'haiya, u have good family, why worry?' 

that's not the point, money is never enuf. we cannot be to contented/comforted by what we having now, we have to earn our own. Learn from experience, and learn from other ppl, thru working, we learn and we meet. 

Whatever job, you'll learn, and you'll meet new ppl, from that new ppl, u'll gain things that u will never gain if u r not working. 

Mayb i'm affected by jo, mayb i'm affected by my surrounded friends, but i noe since high school. I can't depend on my family wholly, i have to work out sth that makes my parents feel proud of me. 

This is how i repay~

Nitez~~

设计

这两天好烦，晚上睡觉的时候都有好多事情在脑海里转呀转。

其中最烦的是我这次的设计主题。

老师让我们自己给自己针对大学校园找出问题，当问题找出来了以后，就是该想解决方法的时候了。

勤劳的我，花了将近两天的时间，在莫大的校园里转。

终于找出了3个问题：

1: Visual and physical connections between main campus and swan river.

2: Usage and maintenance of faculty's green space.

3: Connections between main campus, colleges and ALVA campus.

1. 大学原始设计的概念，是将学校与相邻的‘死亡’河融洽的相连，所有的建筑设计都应该对那条河公开，也就是说，无论学生在哪个点，都应该很容易的就看到那条河。（大家，这条河很漂亮的，因为河的对岸就是我们的city，所以景观很不错的。）

2. 每个科系都有自己的一个花园（不知道是花园还是草地，反正就是一片绿色的地。）但是我发现到，除了中心的广场，和靠近食堂，店面的绿色土地有被用到之外，其他的都好像荒芜了，不是没人用，就是有很多不该有的东西。（比方说：垃圾桶啦，拖拉车啦）

3. 至于这个嘛，也就是会影响到我们的问题了。ALVA是我们科系的简称，Architecture, Landscape and Visual Arts. 我们的校园与主校园间隔了一条大马路，所以基本上，主校园的学生与我们之间几乎没有交界点。除非有些书要到主校园的图书馆借（因为每个科系都有自己的图书馆，有时候，我们要找的书只有别的科系图书馆有。）要不然，我们几乎不会踏足主校园的。 

我记得有个让我又好气又好笑的事情，有一次，我在主校园借书的时候，遇到了读商时交的一个香港朋友，

他问我：‘So, what have you been up to recently? din c you ard since first semester.'

我：‘Oh, i've changed course, commerce is just not for me. I've changed to Architecture.'

他：‘Where is ur campus?'

我：‘ALVA.'

他：‘Ergh.. where?'

我：‘Its at the corner of Hampden road.'

大概过了1，2分钟吧。他突然好像恍然大悟般，

很大声的说：‘OH!! is it the one where all the car parks are?'

我无言了，这么难读的科系，这么伟大的科系，竟被人认为是停车场。

从此之后，无论谁问我，我的科系在哪里，我就说停车场的地方。意外的，说名字他们不知道，一说停车场，他们全了。

所以，我选择了第三个问题来做。我想改变他们对我们位置的认知。

我想让我们科系的学生，有机会享受到主校园美丽的花园，主校园的壮观。

我是该保持我们学校的位置呢？还是把科系拆了，搬到大学校里，然后就名正言顺的把这里盖成一个停车场？

如果保持的话，我是该做不一样的天桥来连接主校园和我们的科系？还是做一个很漂亮的地下城？如果做天桥？该怎么做才特别？该怎么设计才能突出？如果做地下城，有什么能力吸引学生，甚至是其他人士去用？

就这样，我又像往常一样卡在这里了。不过这次有进步，我不是卡在问题里，我是卡在解决方案里。

感谢，感激

今夜，怀着感激的心情，写了这篇文章。
佩菁，很感谢你，在我心情最最低落的时候，用你的声音陪伴着我。
今夜，是非常疯狂的一夜。
在没有酒精，没有烟雾弥漫的小小房间里。
我们用声音，来安慰彼此心里某个破碎的角落。

疯狂的唱着，彼此的失落，双方的悲伤。
近三个小时的声音陪伴，让彼此孤寂的灵魂，得到了些许的慰籍。

从没有想过，声音有这么大的力量。
从没有认为，你能为我牺牲。

心里小小的虚荣心，也被你偶尔的小称赞满足了不少；
心里满满的小碎片，也因为你的声音慢慢的拼贴成形。

感谢你，牺牲自己的时间，只为安慰我；
感激你，无私地陪伴着我，只为娱乐我。

感谢，感激~
特别的朋友

～生日快乐～

基于时差的原因可能你那里已经是19号了。

但我还是想写一篇文章来祝福你。

真诚的祝福你，

因为得知你现在很好。

收到你早上的第一封短信，得知一个专属你的好消息，

我很是替你高兴。

希望你能幸福。

秋华，祝你生日快乐！！

知道不知道

那天的云是否都已料到
所以脚步才轻巧
以免打扰到
我们的时光
因为注定那么少
风吹着白云飘
你到哪里去了
想你的时候
抬头微笑 知道不知道

闲来无事，找找小小硬盘里的电影，重新看了一边李心洁主演的《鬼域》。
无意间，听到了片尾曲，很喜欢。
上网找了找这首曲子的名字。
下载了之后，听完。
四周一片漆黑，一室的孤寂，一个人躺在床上，闭上眼，听着这首歌。
觉得自已像一朵昙花，在孤寂的夜晚，独自开放，独自凋落。
等不到天亮，看不到晨曦，感受不到阳光的温暖。
就这样，心里铺满了落花~
冬天的低温，让心里的寒意更为深切~
无尽的荒凉，有谁知道？你知道么？
为了帮助睡眠，黑暗热了杯牛奶，用手捧着，把杯子贴在心口。
渴望感受一丝温暖。
手是暖和了，身体的温度也上升了，但心凉了，如何去暖呢。。
这首歌，不断在耳边环绕~
脑海里，开始燃烧一些记忆，取暖。
寻遍记忆的角落，却发现，甜蜜与快乐，竟然那么少，更多的是牵肠挂肚的挣扎与不舍的疼痛。
一个不好的开始，注定了一个不好的结果。是么？
想你的时候，我很想抬起头，微笑。可是~

封锁心扉，不听，不看，不想~
再不动心，再不动情~
动什么，也别动感情，谈什么，也别谈爱情~
想起了一句话，爱情，就像脱衣服，谁先脱，谁脱得快，谁先冻僵~
如今想来，似乎是这么回事~
知其心者，成其知已；乱其心者，成其恋人~
痴其心者，失了自已，惨淡收场，只有淡然离去~

本文章纯属虚构，并不是本‘嫖’的人生写照。大家放心，我还安好。

打工生活

不累，打工生活不是很累。
而且很开心，每个星期看到那些现金的时候，我那两片眼皮争大到安置在里面的眼珠都差一点掉下来了。嘿嘿~简直就跟卡通里的人物一样，每次看到钱都是那钱的符号在里面打转。

今天餐厅里全满，放工的时候已经差不多12点了。但我一点都不累，我很喜欢做餐厅。尤其是当顾客对餐厅里的食物很喜欢，对我们的服务态度很满意的时候。

外国人有一点好，那就是他们不吝于称赞，好的话，他们会说很好听的话：‘比如说，It's spectacular!!’‘The food is really nice! This is a great restaurant!’‘Thank you for your great hosting!’哇！听得我啊，笑得眼睛都睁不开了。尤其是当他们看到我泡的Latte，对那三层颜色感到惊叹不已的时候，别桌看到我泡的Lemon Lime Bitter，好像很好喝的样子，也点了两杯的时候。我的满足感，真的是很难形容。

我想，以后，等有了钱。开一间自己设计的咖啡屋，不要太高级的那种。中产阶级也能上得了门，但又给人一种很高雅的感觉的那种咖啡屋。自己泡咖啡，管理，赚钱。哈哈~可能赚不了钱，只能是爱好。

但是，我今天跟上一个打工的餐厅老板聊天的时候，发现，如果开餐厅，有相当的商科背景是绝对有利而无害的。

所以我决定了，等我念完建筑设计，我就要半工读，早上上班，晚上上课。读金融，会计。不急，慢慢读，大概给自己5-10年的时间来筹备这间咖啡屋的诞生吧！

但一个问题出来了，在那里开呢？以现在的形势来看，可能中国的市场会很大。而且我父母也很喜欢那里，但我的父亲却受不了冬天的寒冷。有点难抉择捏~~ 不管了，现赚钱再说吧！

不不不！！先读完再说。所以现在，在餐馆里，能学就学。能看就看，毕竟以后开餐厅的话，这就是我的经验了。

加油！！！！

一线之差

我，目击了很多事情，都是一刹那发生的。

晚走几分钟，就不会遇到那场车祸，就不会丧失性命。

拖延一天，就不会精神不振，就不会遇到那场车祸，也就不会英年早逝。

迟一年，或早一年离校，就不会遇上他，也就不会展开第一次幸苦的恋爱。

如果不遇上他，就不会让我对我的人生做了那么不负责任的决定。

负面一点，就不会花了五年的时间，孕育了早注定胎死腹中的感情。

正面一点，就不会再还没开始孕育，就草草的结束了一段有可能开花结果的感情。

什么都是一念之差，什么都是一线之间。

人生就是那么精彩，什么选择都可以改变以后的人生。

无论什么选择都可以有全然不一样的结果，好，不好。快乐，悲伤。

我想这就是生命最美丽的地方，也是人生最讨厌的部分。

这段时间，我做了个决定。

但我预见了这个决定会带来后悔；有人可能会问：‘既然会后悔，为什么还要这么决定？’

不这么抉择？还有什么方法？

后悔了怎么办？伤心了怎么样？

唉～

人生，就是这么无奈！

奥运！

因为奥运，我们黄皮肤的人终于有出头日了。
现在一拨开电视机，放的广告都好红，都开始有东方味了。
~开心~
所以华人们，别再看不起自己了。我们要团结一致，不要再受别族人的歧视了。我们没什么好让他们看不起的。要科技，我们有，要钱，我们也有，要人才，我们占地球的五分之一，能没有吗？要美女，我们都是。哇哈哈！！
看你们还敢不敢泼我水，说我们穷？？
再泼，再骂！！
我就放你妈*屁！！！

哎呀！没有淑女的样子了。对不起，我承认，我其实已经有种族歧视了。歧视他们！！！

博客名称

先对我这个博客名称写些介绍吧！其实嫖客是我从中国著名的相声演员郭德刚那里抄袭来的。忘记那段相声叫什么了。郭德刚的相声常常都会把一些日常生活的话题带入到他的表演里。而他就把博客，好笑的称为嫖客了。所以，这并不是我的原创，我只是在盗用。

只是觉得挺有意思的，所以就用了贝。所以大家别误解了，我可不是什么好色之徒哦。也不爱嫖，也不赞成嫖。

男人，女人啊~嫖了对身体不好，嫖了伤害身边的亲人，嫖了会招惹一些没必要的东西。最重要的是，嫖~违背了我的宗教理念。

所以，不要嫖妓了，来当个‘嫖’客吧！嘿嘿~

好久

好久没写东西了。别问我上一个博客跑哪里去了。因为我不会回答～嘿嘿～

想写的东西好多，奥运啦，生活啦，工作啦，课业啦。

都不知道该怎么开始了。

不过新生活永远都是不错的。虽然有不如意的事情，但现在感觉挺不错。

情绪化是我最近发现自己的一个新毛病，这根本不是摩羯的特点，巨蟹？还是星座都是骗人的？

整理整理，今晚再写些正题。

这就当是本小姐休息半个月后的处女作吧。

小女子这厢有礼啦！！