星期日的这刻

坐在只有一扇门开着的房间里，用身体感受着炎热的室温，突然，好想听歌。
音乐播放器里，只有一首动力火车的‘冲动’重复的播放着。
歌的旋律，有股催眠的能量，把我催眠了一缕烟丝，飘到一年前的这个时候；
有股痛的感觉，愧疚的心思。

那是一段不堪的回忆，是一次没有道别的道别，没有再见的再见。
决定，是那么的突然；
决裂，是眨眼就发生；
什么是爱？什么是承诺？什么是相守？
所有的曾经，都抛诸脑后！

恨，怨。。。

好久，发现自己没了呼吸。
不是不能，而是被这复杂的感触充斥了自己的心，而忘了呼吸。

深深的吸了一口气，同时，这缕漂泊在一年前的烟丝，消失了。
调整心情。。
继续走吧，将这些回忆折叠好，齐整的摆在心里的深处。。

i need to LET GO!!!

why am i so f**king stubborn that i just keep grabbing on this untouchable person who don't even know who the hell i am..

making my life so hard and filled with what i think is stupid.. jealousy~~

why am i so f**king stupid that i kept on digging out sth that does not exist anymore????

can i just let go?? i mean...this person just don't worth my time and effort to care about, mad about, or even jealous about!!!!

what the f**k am i doin???

ARGH!!!!! i hate it!!!! just hate it!!!!

wonder...

I wonder why some people can spend hours on facebook by just browsing through others picture? Even happens when that person dunno the other person in those pictures.j

I wonder why professions always tried very hard to ignore 'simplification' and prone to 'complication'. They jus dun wan to make student's life easy...

I wonder why God creates a thing we commonly called greed? This thing contributes no good to our society.

I wonder how a complete song can only contain 8 different keys? With these 8 keys, we, as a human being, can work out pop, jazz, blue, rock n roll etc.

I wonder is it really a good time for us, so called x-generation to produce our next generation? With all these socio-economy issues, global climate issues etc.

I wonder can I survive without my father? My life till now is so pampered, never ever worried abt survival.

I wonder can fight and war really resolve countries' issues? How much do we need to pay as a compensation for the lost souls, poverties, those who suffered.

I wonder why women tends to get jealous so easily? Those consequences is so unbearable.

I wonder....

I wonder....

I wonder can I just sit still and have my works done!!!!

好久不见

好久没写东西了。最近比较忙一点，忙着整理房间啦，学校的事情啦。不过我相信接下来一定会更忙！哈哈！唉，最近好像做了一件很幼稚又很傻的事情。不过，基于面子的问题，我就不说了。反正就是很丢脸的事情啦。还好只有我自己知道！嘿嘿！！

也不知道写些什么了。。噢！发现到最近澳洲的东西都起价了，搞不懂。经济这么糟糕，失业率不断上升，为什么物品还会起价？政府的税收也不减减！哼！！太过分了！！

Blackberry~

Ok guys..i noe ive announced in msn n facebook regarding my bb..i jus got it today.n i really its amazing!!it does not look good tho,big n fat..but its function is power!!!n i really enjoy typig msg,checking my emails even blogging while im lying on bed.
Bsides,i like it cos i can jus contact any of my business's related frens 24/7.so,im now bcoming a new fan of blackberry.
These few days perth is quite cool,n i do enjoy rainy day..i feel peaceful!!
Tml i'll need to go to an architect's firm for one of my unit,kinda nervous abt tat!cos i dunno what to wear,n not sure wat is required for the first day..
Somemore,my room is stil unpack,stil got a lot of stuff need to take out from boxes n arrange properly in my room..i really dunno wat put where!!sienz~

Going back..

im heading back perth... tml.. flight departs at 9.20 PM.. will reach perth on sat morning.. im so sien whenever i think abt it. cos just.. sien lar~!@#@#$#@#

so now, no mood to blog liao.. cos im goin back to the place i dun like liao.. what can i do? NTH... just sien lor..

business

recently have a business opportunity.. wonder is ppl outthere interested? do contact me if u r.. no matter u r from aus, msia, spore or even taiwan.. WE CAN EARN TOGETHER!

mobiling post..

haha..i start to feel tat internet access system in hp is useful.provided the access is free..can jus lay on my bed n blog!(such a 'lazer' i m) abt d fren's story in previous msg.she decided to give it a go..try n giv her bf another chance.i hope avthing turns out jus right for her..luv is blind..tat's all i can say.if i were her,i mite made d same decision s well.(jikkam said tat guys sometime will stray in their mind,if tat's true,its obviously cant find a guy tat wont,y not jus stick w d one tat u r happy w n b happy?somemo,i blif tat gals stray in their mind once a while too!so,its a fair n square game tat we r playing.) jus tat i suggest to all girls n boys,there will owes b another gal or guy out there tat u mite hav interest in,but tat's jus a begining,after a while,u 2 mite not suit each other n u'l b wasting time to go 4 d new one,y not jus play it in ur mind,luv d one u having,n maintain a healthy,happy,long lasting relationship w d one tat u hav?dun get greedy,cos it kills, mentally n even physically!! At d end of d day,its not d initial sparks tat maintain d relationship,its our effort,our connections,our mind n our family bond tat keeps us goin! S for me,im happy w wat im having now,jus dunno when shud i make it officially known to my parents..its kinda..difficult,im worry abt acceptance,n permission tat i mite b able or unable to obtain from them..i would luv to let them noe,but i dun wan unnecessary pressure occurs..its so hard to decide when,where n how to tell..i feel bad to lie,n dun wanna live in guilt anymo.sigh..this is d pro w only child,hav to consider more on parents cos u r their only..ldr is already a disaster!ldr without parents blessings n guidances is more than a disaster!! Sigh..i think,i'l need to go to bed now..b4 tat,i'l send a goodnite msg to...(dunno how should i put it so tat it wont make my frens puke!hehe..)hopefully,my new semester will b a great one!n i'l b able to find myself a part time job to handle some of my personal spendings!luv all my friends! N...yeah! I almost forgot! Happy Chinese New Year! I forgot to write a post abt tat..i'l write one in near future..luv u all!n hav a goodnight!

忘记，原谅

小故事一则：

从朋友听来的伤心事。

一个月前，朋友发现了男友一些不忠的举动。

当然，不是肉体出轨，而是思想出轨。

一个月后，朋友并没有因为这些小举动而离开她的男友；

当下，我问她：‘为什么？思想出轨有时比肉体出轨还恐怖，还恶心，而且不可原谅！’

‘...’ 

沉默-- 是我耐心等了2分钟的答案。

对这个答案，我想，我是理解的。

寂静的夜晚，只有冷气嗒啦嗒啦的声音伴着我的思绪，我很认真的想了想这个问题。

如果是我，我会怎样？

看着朋友从以前就对自己的外表不怎么自信的一个女孩，变得几乎已经变态得自卑。

猜疑，烦恼，妒嫉，成了这女孩的‘正常’情绪。

我想，我能理解她。

离不开是因为爱；

爱不下是因为害怕。

当一个人的情绪介于两个极端时，一些古怪的思想，行为便会产生了。

一天到晚都在问为什么，对男友的一些举动，说的一些话都变得非常敏感，而且很负面。顿时失去了所有的信任，刹那觉得对方很陌生。等等等等～

这时，我好想问问那个女孩的男友，‘既然你口口声声说爱她，为什么要做出这种会伤她的心和不尊重的事情呢？’

Us Against the World --- Christina Milian

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more
I would still have you, baby
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war
I'll be fighting with you, baby
Cuz I know if I'm falling, you won't let me hit the ground
If the boat is sinking, I know you won't let me drown

No matter what anyone could say
This is the only place for me
And no one could ever take that away
Nothing could come between us

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you, you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I'll be fighting with you, you, you, you, you
Because it's us against the world
The world, the world
You know it's us against the world
The world, the world, ohh

Now if I'm lost at sea 7 days I'm not alone
If I'm holding you, you, you, you, you
And if it all end's; everybody in the world is gone
I'll be standing with you, baby

And if it's the last breath I take
I'll leave my kiss with you
If there's a wall between us, baby
I know I'll break through

No matter what anyone could say
This is the only place for me
And no one could ever take that away
Nothing could come between us

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you, you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I'll be fighting with you, you, you, you, you
Because it's us against the world

Nothing's stronger now than you and I
Cuz your love is all I got
And this ain't never gonna stop
No, whoa
There's no distance here when we're apart
Come on in from the cold
Lay your head on my shoulder
Ride like a soldier
I'm stay right here

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you, you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I'll be fighting with you, you, you, you, you
Because it's us against the world
The world, the world
You know it's us against the world
The world, the world, ohh (Repeat)