上瘾

在这世界上，我们所谓的一见钟情，其实就是人体天然味道的互相吸引。

在冰冷的科学验证下，一见钟情这种现象，是因为有一种理性的物质，叫做费洛蒙气味。
但费洛蒙也有非常感性的的运作，它是不需要任何辅助味道，所谓的第六感官。
世界的各个男女，都拥有不一样的费洛蒙。当你，我遇到让我们疯狂的费洛蒙时，所谓的一见钟情，就产生了。

对你，是不是因为费洛蒙？
就在1月的最后一天见了你~
对你的眼神，我闪烁。
是因为女人的腼腆，还是你的眼光太炙热？
不过我很喜欢，喜欢你那炙热的眼神看着我。

时间一点点的过去，我也一直享受着你偶尔飘过来的眼神。
你我之间的距离，从3个人，变成0；
你就在我旁边~啊！
你可知道，我的心，有多紧张吗？
淡淡的男人味，一直钩着我的魂。
突然，你牵起我的手，躲开人群，躲开吵杂，带着我逃离现实，往爱情路上跑了。
就在那天，我恋爱了。

相爱得那么突然，让我心里一直都有不安的感觉。
你爱我什么呢？八年前的你，还和现在一样吗？我们有未来吗？
种种刚恋爱的女生该有的思绪一下子串到我脑海里。
严格来说，我们算是一见钟情吗？
不！我选择了否认，因为我讨厌一见钟情。

儿时的情谊，我负了你，
八年后的某天，我爱了你。
激情，破涛汹涌般的席卷而来。
因为距离，我们疯狂的聊电话；
因为相隔，我们发了狂的msn，发短信。
我们的爱，是那么疯狂！
那么不理智，那么空~

但只要在我们所能，都会争取机会相见！
相会的时间短暂，但却让我那犯了5个月的瘾，不安，空，得到前所未有的舒缓。
我告诉过你，我真的好喜欢，你那说不出的味道~
闻着你的脸，你的脖，都能让我紧绷的心绪，得到无从说起的解脱。
你的拥抱，总能把我对你的不信任感，安全感都填补回来。

时间一天一天的过去，
渐渐，不知道为了什么，你变了。
变得陌生~ 变得让我无法自容~
我想挽回，却得到你的逃避；
我想再爱，却得到你的推拒。

我再也得不到一年前的疼爱，体谅。
有的是争吵，争吵，还是争吵。

在我重复的追问下，你终于承认了一个我从来没遇到的事情。。。
你说你还爱我，
但我该如何相信？

我该如何自处？该如何~~
才能继续，完整地，从容的拥有你身上那让我能解瘾的~



费洛蒙。

Prayers needed...

I'm too sad to move on....
Please pray for me..
I need support...
From Whoever..
....

星期日的这刻

坐在只有一扇门开着的房间里，用身体感受着炎热的室温，突然，好想听歌。
音乐播放器里，只有一首动力火车的‘冲动’重复的播放着。
歌的旋律，有股催眠的能量，把我催眠了一缕烟丝，飘到一年前的这个时候；
有股痛的感觉，愧疚的心思。

那是一段不堪的回忆，是一次没有道别的道别，没有再见的再见。
决定，是那么的突然；
决裂，是眨眼就发生；
什么是爱？什么是承诺？什么是相守？
所有的曾经，都抛诸脑后！

恨，怨。。。

好久，发现自己没了呼吸。
不是不能，而是被这复杂的感触充斥了自己的心，而忘了呼吸。

深深的吸了一口气，同时，这缕漂泊在一年前的烟丝，消失了。
调整心情。。
继续走吧，将这些回忆折叠好，齐整的摆在心里的深处。。

i need to LET GO!!!

why am i so f**king stubborn that i just keep grabbing on this untouchable person who don't even know who the hell i am..

making my life so hard and filled with what i think is stupid.. jealousy~~

why am i so f**king stupid that i kept on digging out sth that does not exist anymore????

can i just let go?? i mean...this person just don't worth my time and effort to care about, mad about, or even jealous about!!!!

what the f**k am i doin???

ARGH!!!!! i hate it!!!! just hate it!!!!

wonder...

I wonder why some people can spend hours on facebook by just browsing through others picture? Even happens when that person dunno the other person in those pictures.j

I wonder why professions always tried very hard to ignore 'simplification' and prone to 'complication'. They jus dun wan to make student's life easy...

I wonder why God creates a thing we commonly called greed? This thing contributes no good to our society.

I wonder how a complete song can only contain 8 different keys? With these 8 keys, we, as a human being, can work out pop, jazz, blue, rock n roll etc.

I wonder is it really a good time for us, so called x-generation to produce our next generation? With all these socio-economy issues, global climate issues etc.

I wonder can I survive without my father? My life till now is so pampered, never ever worried abt survival.

I wonder can fight and war really resolve countries' issues? How much do we need to pay as a compensation for the lost souls, poverties, those who suffered.

I wonder why women tends to get jealous so easily? Those consequences is so unbearable.

I wonder....

I wonder....

I wonder can I just sit still and have my works done!!!!

好久不见

好久没写东西了。最近比较忙一点，忙着整理房间啦，学校的事情啦。不过我相信接下来一定会更忙！哈哈！唉，最近好像做了一件很幼稚又很傻的事情。不过，基于面子的问题，我就不说了。反正就是很丢脸的事情啦。还好只有我自己知道！嘿嘿！！

也不知道写些什么了。。噢！发现到最近澳洲的东西都起价了，搞不懂。经济这么糟糕，失业率不断上升，为什么物品还会起价？政府的税收也不减减！哼！！太过分了！！

Blackberry~

Ok guys..i noe ive announced in msn n facebook regarding my bb..i jus got it today.n i really its amazing!!it does not look good tho,big n fat..but its function is power!!!n i really enjoy typig msg,checking my emails even blogging while im lying on bed.
Bsides,i like it cos i can jus contact any of my business's related frens 24/7.so,im now bcoming a new fan of blackberry.
These few days perth is quite cool,n i do enjoy rainy day..i feel peaceful!!
Tml i'll need to go to an architect's firm for one of my unit,kinda nervous abt tat!cos i dunno what to wear,n not sure wat is required for the first day..
Somemore,my room is stil unpack,stil got a lot of stuff need to take out from boxes n arrange properly in my room..i really dunno wat put where!!sienz~

Going back..

im heading back perth... tml.. flight departs at 9.20 PM.. will reach perth on sat morning.. im so sien whenever i think abt it. cos just.. sien lar~!@#@#$#@#

so now, no mood to blog liao.. cos im goin back to the place i dun like liao.. what can i do? NTH... just sien lor..

business

recently have a business opportunity.. wonder is ppl outthere interested? do contact me if u r.. no matter u r from aus, msia, spore or even taiwan.. WE CAN EARN TOGETHER!

mobiling post..

haha..i start to feel tat internet access system in hp is useful.provided the access is free..can jus lay on my bed n blog!(such a 'lazer' i m) abt d fren's story in previous msg.she decided to give it a go..try n giv her bf another chance.i hope avthing turns out jus right for her..luv is blind..tat's all i can say.if i were her,i mite made d same decision s well.(jikkam said tat guys sometime will stray in their mind,if tat's true,its obviously cant find a guy tat wont,y not jus stick w d one tat u r happy w n b happy?somemo,i blif tat gals stray in their mind once a while too!so,its a fair n square game tat we r playing.) jus tat i suggest to all girls n boys,there will owes b another gal or guy out there tat u mite hav interest in,but tat's jus a begining,after a while,u 2 mite not suit each other n u'l b wasting time to go 4 d new one,y not jus play it in ur mind,luv d one u having,n maintain a healthy,happy,long lasting relationship w d one tat u hav?dun get greedy,cos it kills, mentally n even physically!! At d end of d day,its not d initial sparks tat maintain d relationship,its our effort,our connections,our mind n our family bond tat keeps us goin! S for me,im happy w wat im having now,jus dunno when shud i make it officially known to my parents..its kinda..difficult,im worry abt acceptance,n permission tat i mite b able or unable to obtain from them..i would luv to let them noe,but i dun wan unnecessary pressure occurs..its so hard to decide when,where n how to tell..i feel bad to lie,n dun wanna live in guilt anymo.sigh..this is d pro w only child,hav to consider more on parents cos u r their only..ldr is already a disaster!ldr without parents blessings n guidances is more than a disaster!! Sigh..i think,i'l need to go to bed now..b4 tat,i'l send a goodnite msg to...(dunno how should i put it so tat it wont make my frens puke!hehe..)hopefully,my new semester will b a great one!n i'l b able to find myself a part time job to handle some of my personal spendings!luv all my friends! N...yeah! I almost forgot! Happy Chinese New Year! I forgot to write a post abt tat..i'l write one in near future..luv u all!n hav a goodnight!