Saturday, September 20, 2008

Becoming Christian again.

For those who know me well, I've undergo baptism in 2006, after 3 yrs of struggle and suffers in Aus.. I've finally accept Him, as my savior and the only God in my life.

My father was and still a very keen christian, but my mum is not. I wonder is that the reason stumbled my father from goin to church. To be frank, i've been to kch's church also, and i've been to Aus's church.. its totally different. Some church just give u a very good feeling, but some just dun.. I prefered Aus's church, i dunno the specific reason, i just like it base on my feelings.

I think, im not a very very holy type of believer. I don't talk christianity with friends, i dont drag them to church, cos i noe.. this is not the best way of doing it. Before i believe, i dislike people doing this to me..

'Golar, its fun!'
'No car..'
'We can drive you.'
'Dun feel like going.'
'Golar, got free food to eat.'
'...'
hmm.. this is the most common conservation ive heard when my friends try to bring me to church.. 'free food'.. hahaha~
sorry if i offended anyone of you.. its just my feelings.. i appreciate their effort, but i just dun like the feeling of being forced.

I owes think that religious is not a good thing when i was younger, cos most wars happened in history, majority are because of religion.

but my life in Aus, was so hard, and bumpy.. from chicken pox to operation, from housemate's conflict to losing friends, from quarrel to some legal issues, from discrimination to car stolen, almost every year, every semester.. there will be a dramatic issue happen to me.. all my coursemates were so amazed by my stay in Perth.. and owes asked for more stories..

Under these stories, i cant recall how, when and why.. I turned myself to God.. seek for help, and confessed my sins to him. I believe he is the one who carried me when im having those issue.. he's the one who support me silently and offered help to me without asking any repay. I finally, open my heart to become a christian, to commence my christianity life. I've joined the 40 days of purpose campus.. and after that, i always go to church.. and finally.. i've decided to baptise..

its a hard job to turn a non-believer into one.. in my life.. i've turn one man from non-believer to believer, but he never go to church, and he is not yet ready to devote himself into christianity life. I've spent 5 yrs to persuade him.. slowly, tell him stories.. affect him by myself.. at last! he starts to approach God by himself.. Im glad.. and happy for him.. at least, he starts to believe.

However, since dunno when, i seldom go to church le.. and i start to have bad habits and wasn't able to control myself well.. i think.. for certain period.. me myself was manipulated by devils.. i've done bad stuffs.. and now.. i feel sinful.. and everyday pray for forgiveness.. luckily.. i confessed to Him.. and bcos of Andy, i start to flip through bible, and start to keep contact with God, start to write my confession diary..

Hopefully, from now on.. i can start my christianity journey without fail.

God Bless You all~~

2 comments:

Andy said...

yeah, may god bless you~ but why mention Andy? he din do anything..

Anonymous said...

sorry for my tofu brain.. i cant remember why Andy le..