Last night~

Las night was a relaxing night.
Jo went to her aunt's place for dinner, she did invite me..
But my ass was too lazy to leave my chair/bed..
She left at ard 7..

***2 hrs later***
She came back.. and came to my room..
I was watching 'kang xi lai le'..
We had some chit-chat.. and we browse through facebook and friendster together..

We both were always not the type of gals that like to browse through pics of others..
but tonight.. we did it...
And suddenly, we saw one fren.. We both was so shock that she actually went clubbing!!!
Make up oso.. and i screamed.. and said :' oh S**T, even she go clubbing.. me shu liao lar!!!!!'
Joanne was laughing and suddenly, she had this serious face.. turn around and look at me..
'To be frank, u r really shu lar.. u r 23 leh, have to do sth that u can do now, wear sth that u can wear now.. if not.. when u turn to 30.. u wont be able to wear anymore!!'

YEAH! Jo was right.. i shud be wearings sexy clothes, cute ones, classy ones.. but definitely not the 'la tak' ones.. hahaha!!!!
But im so uncomfortable with my fats!! And i dun feel like letting some guys outside to look at my 'ru gou'.. or its normal to show them publicly? Shud i feel proud that im able to show what i've got? hmm.. Shud change my attitude..

But luckily, my diet programme is still on progress, though kinda slow.. but if i continue with what i'm doing now, hopefully.. i'll get rid another 5 kgs by next chinese new year..

mayb i shud learn from some kch's frens.. or my china's frens.. or even singaporean frens, they were so enthu in losing weights.. they used crazy ways of doing it.. we owes said.. use healthy ways use healthy ways.. but for my case.. like stucked in this weigh for over 4 months le.. its kinda/very depressing and discouraging lor..
some frens said 'exercise more lor'
i tried.. last time went jogging 3 times a week, and joined body balance, body combat all these.. but my weight still the same leh.. however, when ppl look at me, they'll think i've lose weight.. i think that's bcos im firmed, but not losing fats.. and the most important thing is, i've gained muscle!!!!! gained muscle, lose some fat.. but 62 with muscle.. wont that look.. erm.. big sized???? so i stop, cos i was so disgusted with the muscle i've gained on my thighs..

mayb i shudn't have jogged, i shud just swim.. or walk..
yeah.. a web friend told me to walk up hills.. walk up hills for 1 hr.. at least 3 times a week.. mayb i shud try that~

sometime, i think gals are kinda sad.. lose weight lar, whitening lar, plastic surgery lar, nice clothing lar, nice nails lar, nice heels lar, nice bags lar.. FOR WHAT????

'Make yourself look pretty lar!' my mum...
'Then?' me
'Ergh.. 女为悦己者容' mommy
'hmmm' me..
'i don't want to be display vase' me..
'u can be pretty and wise in the same time!' mimi
'oh..' me
'HAIYA!!! u r hopeless lar, dun even think like a gal!' pretty mom

whenever i think of this conversation.. i'll laugh.. 3 yrs before, i wasn't worry... i never think of anything abt my appearance.. but this cny.. my father voiced out le...

'mei ar, u r undergo trainings to be an architect right?' papa
'ergh.. yeah~~'
'do u noe that, appearance of an architect also very important?' papa
'erm.. i think so.'
'not think so.. its IMPORTANT! ppl judge ur profession by ur outlook, imagine that if u go out to meet client with those fat and big t-shirts, man's shorts.. its just not.. persuasive lor.' papa
'...'
'u have to wear out ur style.' papa
'i dun go c client lor.. i'll everyday stay in office and work.'
'architect works as an agent, how can an agent not meeting client???' pa
'...'
'exercise more lar, make urself healthy and look good.' pa
'...'

hmmm.. even my father... WA!!!! scary la..
when i was in high school.. i remember there was once.. i wanna lose weight.. that time was 56.. and i wanna cut off my rice intake during dinner.. my father's reaction was..
'NO.. U HAVE TO EAT!!! WHERE GOT NO EAT DINNER ONE????'

now.. when i eat rice..
'MEI AR.. U SURE U WAN TO EAT RICE? FAT WOR!!!!'

haiz~~