Prayers needed!!

I need prayers, and I need concerntrations. I am in a mess and I wish I can overcome this final bit. Please, forgive my procastination, forgive my wrong doings. Bless me with luck and determination! I need to focus and focus and focus!


Say least, Think twice, Action proves everything.

我好像

我好象已经开始不爱了。谢谢你，让我第一次尝到社会的现实,第一次学会付出与所得不一定成正比。

虽然很伤，但是我知道，一旦这些伤口愈合后，那些浅浅淡淡的疤痕会提醒我，警惕我，让我不会再犯傻。爱情是假的，只有亲情和自己才是真的~ 我会永远学会这个不变的现实。有经历，才会成长，才会成熟。男人看的，都是外表，都是表面。

我好像还是放不下，我还是很介意，就算自己做错了一些事情，我还是很小气的很介意。我不知道该怎么忘记，怎么原谅。我好像很小气的不肯原谅。该怎么办？该怎么做？？？

学习，我已经忽略到一种不能再忽略的程度，可不知道为什么，到了这个时候，我还是能躺在床上浪费我这宝贵的时间。我到底是怎么了？？？

身体出了问题，就因为一时的冲动，做了那种奇怪的傻事。我们都是冲动的俘虏。永远只会做这种傻瓜的事情。

永远都被眼前事物迷惑，忘了自己的真心在想什么。

第一次

第一次用iphone写博客。现在的心情非常复杂，因为原本有一个很重要的presentation要去的。但我选择不去，因为没做到什么功课，再这么下去这科就要被当了。很担心啊~

Sometimes..

Sometimes, when things happened, u just can't turn back the time to redo everything. When you've hurt someone, the pain will always be there. Unless, certain period of time has passed. You might be able to recover from such a deep pain.

I've been hurt by and hurt someone before. Its no good for both sides if the person is with quality personalities. He or she accidentally hurt someone, will feel very guilty. I am not saying that I am a very good person. But I certainly will feel guilty and try my best to amend the mistakes and pain I gave to my fren.

I feel guilty even that issue had happened 1.5yr ago. Whenever i think of him, see his name and pic on my phone, i'll feel very very guilty.

He is very kind.. He forgave me.. But i really feel like doin sth for him.. I hope i can.. Sigh..

Now, avthing is too late.. Nth can be done but only move on...

Sometimes, i jus wonder~~

Sad...

I feel sad today. Disappointments from everywhere.. From friends, and from ~ (for those who close with me, you'll know).. I know i have to let those bad things go, so that i can move on. But, its easy to say, hard to take action.

Whenever i think of it, i'll feel bad, pain, n hurt. People does change, they might not be same as last time, how naive i was.. To assume that ~ will be the same guy i knew 10yrs ago. He's totally different.. He did stuffs that is v hurtful and disrespectful. Ppl tends to become more n more selfish, n lack of considerations. I wonder why? Is it bcos what had happened? Or was it bcos of the environment that whoever stays within?

But dont worry.I'll be fine,tml is a new day. N everything will be just fine! Thanks for concern and spending time reading my rubbish.

Mei

It works!!!

Yep, the blog is actually working!! The story of the previous image is:

This little kitten is just a guest that stays at my place for one day. I can't recall its name, but it is sooooo cute!! He is so hyper and very sticky, he likes to sleep under my arms, and he'll pat you on your face to wake you up while you are sleeping. Though it is abit annoying, but it still feel good that your care and attention are needed by this little animal.

Though he only stayed here for 2 days, but once a while i'll miss him. For a person who stays by her own like me, its still good to have a pet ard to keep me accompanied.

But it requires long term period of care and commitment, so must think more than twice when getting one for oneself.

I wish i can get a border collie or golden retriever in future. But!! If it is for protection sake, mayb rodweiler, doberman will be better choices. Hmmm.. Must think clearly before getting one.

Anyway, thats all for today. Since i am able to blog through mobile, i'll be able to update more frequently. (Provided i am able to change my bad habit of procastinate when it comes to organizing photos... Hehehe.. Those who knows me, shud know what i meant)

Wonder...

Wonder why i cant set two different blog's account to my blackberry. And i found it is quite troublesome to type chinese from blackberry.

Lets test using email blog can post image or not...

Testing.

Hope can work..

倒数

距离关键的一天只有22天了，功课越来越多，时间越来越紧迫。
我每天都活在压力，压抑中。当我看到所有的同学都是用开心，愉悦的心情做着自己的功课时，我就开始怀疑自己的兴趣，我到底适不适合读我现在读的科目？有没有这方面的才能？如果过是，有，为什么我会这么辛苦？

为什么在澳洲的生活会这么不顺？七年里，搬了七次家。盲肠炎，出水痘，感情问题，朋友问题，同屋问题，车被偷，车被撞，被isp骗，掉钱包，反正每年一定有一，两件大事情发生。不停的发生，我开始对自己的神经能力有所赞许，发生了这么多事情，学业负担又那么重，我还没变神经病！呵呵~

朋友们都让我把在澳洲的事迹写成一本书，哈哈~书名叫做，当人与国八字不和时。。想想，还真是不可思议。不过相比之下，比我辛苦的人一定更多，压力更大的肯定一箩筐！所以，我这微不足道的小事情，还是别出书丢自己的脸了。

本来是对已经迟交的模型压力很大，因为觉得越做越丑，但是我并没有放弃，一直做，开始觉得并不那么难看啊！一定可以很好的，不要要求太多了，只要做完，尽力了，就可以了。自问，对这份作业，我已经尽力了！！嗯~~这周末，慢慢做完，交了，就是尽力了！网友们，对吧？

所以，凡事别把开始的丑陋给吓怕了，吓跑了，一定可以的，一定会完成的，就算没有很好的成绩，但至少尽力了，一定会过的。可能成绩不会是自己预期的那么好，但是，尽力了，就一定会过去的。

加油啊！无论是对感情，事业，学习，都会熬过去的！！

好久

好久没有写东西了，最近发生了很多事情。学习上的压力，生活上的压力，金钱上的压力，感情上的压力。今晚，他又食言了，答应我不会再挂我电话，可是又挂了，而且还关机。这是让我觉得最不能忍受的地方，一个大男人，一不高兴就挂电话。（很没礼貌的那种）

不过不知道自己是太习惯了，这次，没掉眼泪，这是第一次不掉眼泪了。是习惯，还是已经不像以前那么爱了？以前的我，很喜欢写日记的，一有不开心的事情，就会写写东西。把日记本当作上帝，做错事情了，就到日记本里要求神的宽恕，不开心了，就希望神会听到我的心声，有时候，写写，就会很开心了。

可不知道从什么时候开始，我已经不写日记了，不写自己的心情，是因为孟伯上次看了我的东西，让自己觉得很不好意思，还是因为写在部落格上，怕太多人看到自己的生活，想想，还是自己不够豁达啊。还是没有看破！

去年做了一件很错的事情，就从那时候开始，我觉得自己过得很空虚，很愧疚。一年多了，我时常都是活在愧疚里。希望今夜的决定，与他分开，会让我从此解脱。不会再活在愧疚里了。

朋友们，今天开始，我就是一个单身女人咯。虽然伤心，但我希望能好好享受一个人的生活，想想，应该是很自由自在，很开心的！加油咯，黄世眉，你行的!!!

祝各位读者，开心！幸福！

想唱歌

你是我最苦涩的等待 让我欢喜又害怕未来
你最爱说你是一颗尘埃 偶尔会恶作剧的飘进我眼里

宁愿我哭泣 不让我爱你
你就真的像尘埃消失在风里

难得来看我，却又离开我 让那手中泻落的沙想泪水流

你是我最痛苦的抉择 为何你从不放弃漂泊
海对你是那么难分难舍 你总是带回满口袋的沙给我

难得来看我 却又离开我
让那手中泻落的沙像泪水流

风吹来的沙，落在悲伤的眼里
谁都看出我在等你

风吹来的沙，堆积在心里
是谁也擦不去的痕迹

风吹来的沙，穿过所有的记忆
谁都知道我在想你

风吹来的沙，冥冥在哭泣
难道早就预言了分离

心日记

心里无限感慨，无尽的思念；
无处宣泄，所以选择了这里。
从康伟那里拿回了一前小时候写的信，发现自己其实挺爱写东西的，可能是一个人的关系吧。
与父母的年龄差距很多，很有代沟，又没有兄弟姐妹，所以只能透过说话和文字来表达心中的感慨。
抄抄歌词啦，做做白日梦啦，发现以前很享受这种生活。
但随着年龄渐渐的增加，再也不能尽情的享受这种悠闲了，越享受，内心的罪恶感就越来越重~
总觉得自己为什么要想那么多？是不是自己读的东西不对啊？应该读一些能让自己在这方面尽情地发挥。比如说，记者啦~
如果我是记者，我喜欢做一些人情冷暖的题材，因为我很喜欢研究人类~
很喜欢听人家的故事，每当听着一些伤心的，感动的，心里就会不自觉地，播放一首无曲的歌。
一首属于对方的歌~
今天听到了一个故事，有一个我颇有好感的牙医，原本觉得他很帅，而且牙医在澳大利亚是很有前途的。可当朋友告诉我他已婚，失落了~嘻嘻~
但今天，朋友告诉我，他们闹离婚了。女方很可怜，因为是中国人，又没有绿卡，如果真的离了，她就必须回国了。但基于传统的家庭，她不能告诉父母。必须得偷偷的回到自己的国家。
没有家里人的支持，她该怎么办？原本以为嫁得好人家，可好景不长，短短的一年零六个月。就这么碎了~

心情日记

我把url改了，原因，我自己也不太清楚为什么。
可能我想把这里当成我的心灵日记吧。。
不想太多人知道，或者说，不想让太多认识我的人知道。
听着daniel powter 的free loop，
心里有着很复杂的情绪，
像是松懈了，但又不尽然；
像是伤心了，可又不太像。

失落？坦然？放弃？坚持？
想了好久，摸不清自己的心；
想了好久，搞不懂自己的意。

不过这的确是一首很不错的歌，旋律里有着五六十年代的韵味。
我很喜欢...

经过一些事情，让我理解到这世上的一个事实，
努力，付出，跟收成是不成正比的。
心变了，就是变了；
人不回来，就是不回来了。
问了很多次为什么，但却得不到答案。这个世界，真的不是黑跟白，不仅仅只有是与非。
很多时候，事情的发生，没有一个明确的原因，没有一个清楚的道理。
不过，最最最最重要的是，千万别后悔。
因为后悔这种东西，只会成为绊脚石，让人不能向前走的坏情绪。

所以，我并不后悔。反而，我很开心，用着开心的心情，迎接所有的失败，所有的伤痛，所有的不解。过一段时间，等心情平复了，冷静了，再回头看一看，回想自己哪里做得不够，哪里做得不对。相信着，下一段，会更好！

如果你也看到，某某，现在的我，还是很喜欢你哦。
希望我的离开，会让你幸福。让你拥有你一直想要的幸福~
我在这里，会默默的祝福~用心的为你祈祷~

加油！

上瘾

在这世界上，我们所谓的一见钟情，其实就是人体天然味道的互相吸引。

在冰冷的科学验证下，一见钟情这种现象，是因为有一种理性的物质，叫做费洛蒙气味。
但费洛蒙也有非常感性的的运作，它是不需要任何辅助味道，所谓的第六感官。
世界的各个男女，都拥有不一样的费洛蒙。当你，我遇到让我们疯狂的费洛蒙时，所谓的一见钟情，就产生了。

对你，是不是因为费洛蒙？
就在1月的最后一天见了你~
对你的眼神，我闪烁。
是因为女人的腼腆，还是你的眼光太炙热？
不过我很喜欢，喜欢你那炙热的眼神看着我。

时间一点点的过去，我也一直享受着你偶尔飘过来的眼神。
你我之间的距离，从3个人，变成0；
你就在我旁边~啊！
你可知道，我的心，有多紧张吗？
淡淡的男人味，一直钩着我的魂。
突然，你牵起我的手，躲开人群，躲开吵杂，带着我逃离现实，往爱情路上跑了。
就在那天，我恋爱了。

相爱得那么突然，让我心里一直都有不安的感觉。
你爱我什么呢？八年前的你，还和现在一样吗？我们有未来吗？
种种刚恋爱的女生该有的思绪一下子串到我脑海里。
严格来说，我们算是一见钟情吗？
不！我选择了否认，因为我讨厌一见钟情。

儿时的情谊，我负了你，
八年后的某天，我爱了你。
激情，破涛汹涌般的席卷而来。
因为距离，我们疯狂的聊电话；
因为相隔，我们发了狂的msn，发短信。
我们的爱，是那么疯狂！
那么不理智，那么空~

但只要在我们所能，都会争取机会相见！
相会的时间短暂，但却让我那犯了5个月的瘾，不安，空，得到前所未有的舒缓。
我告诉过你，我真的好喜欢，你那说不出的味道~
闻着你的脸，你的脖，都能让我紧绷的心绪，得到无从说起的解脱。
你的拥抱，总能把我对你的不信任感，安全感都填补回来。

时间一天一天的过去，
渐渐，不知道为了什么，你变了。
变得陌生~ 变得让我无法自容~
我想挽回，却得到你的逃避；
我想再爱，却得到你的推拒。

我再也得不到一年前的疼爱，体谅。
有的是争吵，争吵，还是争吵。

在我重复的追问下，你终于承认了一个我从来没遇到的事情。。。
你说你还爱我，
但我该如何相信？

我该如何自处？该如何~~
才能继续，完整地，从容的拥有你身上那让我能解瘾的~



费洛蒙。

Prayers needed...

I'm too sad to move on....
Please pray for me..
I need support...
From Whoever..
....

星期日的这刻

坐在只有一扇门开着的房间里，用身体感受着炎热的室温，突然，好想听歌。
音乐播放器里，只有一首动力火车的‘冲动’重复的播放着。
歌的旋律，有股催眠的能量，把我催眠了一缕烟丝，飘到一年前的这个时候；
有股痛的感觉，愧疚的心思。

那是一段不堪的回忆，是一次没有道别的道别，没有再见的再见。
决定，是那么的突然；
决裂，是眨眼就发生；
什么是爱？什么是承诺？什么是相守？
所有的曾经，都抛诸脑后！

恨，怨。。。

好久，发现自己没了呼吸。
不是不能，而是被这复杂的感触充斥了自己的心，而忘了呼吸。

深深的吸了一口气，同时，这缕漂泊在一年前的烟丝，消失了。
调整心情。。
继续走吧，将这些回忆折叠好，齐整的摆在心里的深处。。

i need to LET GO!!!

why am i so f**king stubborn that i just keep grabbing on this untouchable person who don't even know who the hell i am..

making my life so hard and filled with what i think is stupid.. jealousy~~

why am i so f**king stupid that i kept on digging out sth that does not exist anymore????

can i just let go?? i mean...this person just don't worth my time and effort to care about, mad about, or even jealous about!!!!

what the f**k am i doin???

ARGH!!!!! i hate it!!!! just hate it!!!!

wonder...

I wonder why some people can spend hours on facebook by just browsing through others picture? Even happens when that person dunno the other person in those pictures.j

I wonder why professions always tried very hard to ignore 'simplification' and prone to 'complication'. They jus dun wan to make student's life easy...

I wonder why God creates a thing we commonly called greed? This thing contributes no good to our society.

I wonder how a complete song can only contain 8 different keys? With these 8 keys, we, as a human being, can work out pop, jazz, blue, rock n roll etc.

I wonder is it really a good time for us, so called x-generation to produce our next generation? With all these socio-economy issues, global climate issues etc.

I wonder can I survive without my father? My life till now is so pampered, never ever worried abt survival.

I wonder can fight and war really resolve countries' issues? How much do we need to pay as a compensation for the lost souls, poverties, those who suffered.

I wonder why women tends to get jealous so easily? Those consequences is so unbearable.

I wonder....

I wonder....

I wonder can I just sit still and have my works done!!!!

好久不见

好久没写东西了。最近比较忙一点，忙着整理房间啦，学校的事情啦。不过我相信接下来一定会更忙！哈哈！唉，最近好像做了一件很幼稚又很傻的事情。不过，基于面子的问题，我就不说了。反正就是很丢脸的事情啦。还好只有我自己知道！嘿嘿！！

也不知道写些什么了。。噢！发现到最近澳洲的东西都起价了，搞不懂。经济这么糟糕，失业率不断上升，为什么物品还会起价？政府的税收也不减减！哼！！太过分了！！

Blackberry~

Ok guys..i noe ive announced in msn n facebook regarding my bb..i jus got it today.n i really its amazing!!it does not look good tho,big n fat..but its function is power!!!n i really enjoy typig msg,checking my emails even blogging while im lying on bed.
Bsides,i like it cos i can jus contact any of my business's related frens 24/7.so,im now bcoming a new fan of blackberry.
These few days perth is quite cool,n i do enjoy rainy day..i feel peaceful!!
Tml i'll need to go to an architect's firm for one of my unit,kinda nervous abt tat!cos i dunno what to wear,n not sure wat is required for the first day..
Somemore,my room is stil unpack,stil got a lot of stuff need to take out from boxes n arrange properly in my room..i really dunno wat put where!!sienz~

Going back..

im heading back perth... tml.. flight departs at 9.20 PM.. will reach perth on sat morning.. im so sien whenever i think abt it. cos just.. sien lar~!@#@#$#@#

so now, no mood to blog liao.. cos im goin back to the place i dun like liao.. what can i do? NTH... just sien lor..

business

recently have a business opportunity.. wonder is ppl outthere interested? do contact me if u r.. no matter u r from aus, msia, spore or even taiwan.. WE CAN EARN TOGETHER!

mobiling post..

haha..i start to feel tat internet access system in hp is useful.provided the access is free..can jus lay on my bed n blog!(such a 'lazer' i m) abt d fren's story in previous msg.she decided to give it a go..try n giv her bf another chance.i hope avthing turns out jus right for her..luv is blind..tat's all i can say.if i were her,i mite made d same decision s well.(jikkam said tat guys sometime will stray in their mind,if tat's true,its obviously cant find a guy tat wont,y not jus stick w d one tat u r happy w n b happy?somemo,i blif tat gals stray in their mind once a while too!so,its a fair n square game tat we r playing.) jus tat i suggest to all girls n boys,there will owes b another gal or guy out there tat u mite hav interest in,but tat's jus a begining,after a while,u 2 mite not suit each other n u'l b wasting time to go 4 d new one,y not jus play it in ur mind,luv d one u having,n maintain a healthy,happy,long lasting relationship w d one tat u hav?dun get greedy,cos it kills, mentally n even physically!! At d end of d day,its not d initial sparks tat maintain d relationship,its our effort,our connections,our mind n our family bond tat keeps us goin! S for me,im happy w wat im having now,jus dunno when shud i make it officially known to my parents..its kinda..difficult,im worry abt acceptance,n permission tat i mite b able or unable to obtain from them..i would luv to let them noe,but i dun wan unnecessary pressure occurs..its so hard to decide when,where n how to tell..i feel bad to lie,n dun wanna live in guilt anymo.sigh..this is d pro w only child,hav to consider more on parents cos u r their only..ldr is already a disaster!ldr without parents blessings n guidances is more than a disaster!! Sigh..i think,i'l need to go to bed now..b4 tat,i'l send a goodnite msg to...(dunno how should i put it so tat it wont make my frens puke!hehe..)hopefully,my new semester will b a great one!n i'l b able to find myself a part time job to handle some of my personal spendings!luv all my friends! N...yeah! I almost forgot! Happy Chinese New Year! I forgot to write a post abt tat..i'l write one in near future..luv u all!n hav a goodnight!

忘记，原谅

小故事一则：

从朋友听来的伤心事。

一个月前，朋友发现了男友一些不忠的举动。

当然，不是肉体出轨，而是思想出轨。

一个月后，朋友并没有因为这些小举动而离开她的男友；

当下，我问她：‘为什么？思想出轨有时比肉体出轨还恐怖，还恶心，而且不可原谅！’

‘...’ 

沉默-- 是我耐心等了2分钟的答案。

对这个答案，我想，我是理解的。

寂静的夜晚，只有冷气嗒啦嗒啦的声音伴着我的思绪，我很认真的想了想这个问题。

如果是我，我会怎样？

看着朋友从以前就对自己的外表不怎么自信的一个女孩，变得几乎已经变态得自卑。

猜疑，烦恼，妒嫉，成了这女孩的‘正常’情绪。

我想，我能理解她。

离不开是因为爱；

爱不下是因为害怕。

当一个人的情绪介于两个极端时，一些古怪的思想，行为便会产生了。

一天到晚都在问为什么，对男友的一些举动，说的一些话都变得非常敏感，而且很负面。顿时失去了所有的信任，刹那觉得对方很陌生。等等等等～

这时，我好想问问那个女孩的男友，‘既然你口口声声说爱她，为什么要做出这种会伤她的心和不尊重的事情呢？’

Us Against the World --- Christina Milian

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more
I would still have you, baby
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war
I'll be fighting with you, baby
Cuz I know if I'm falling, you won't let me hit the ground
If the boat is sinking, I know you won't let me drown

No matter what anyone could say
This is the only place for me
And no one could ever take that away
Nothing could come between us

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you, you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I'll be fighting with you, you, you, you, you
Because it's us against the world
The world, the world
You know it's us against the world
The world, the world, ohh

Now if I'm lost at sea 7 days I'm not alone
If I'm holding you, you, you, you, you
And if it all end's; everybody in the world is gone
I'll be standing with you, baby

And if it's the last breath I take
I'll leave my kiss with you
If there's a wall between us, baby
I know I'll break through

No matter what anyone could say
This is the only place for me
And no one could ever take that away
Nothing could come between us

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you, you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I'll be fighting with you, you, you, you, you
Because it's us against the world

Nothing's stronger now than you and I
Cuz your love is all I got
And this ain't never gonna stop
No, whoa
There's no distance here when we're apart
Come on in from the cold
Lay your head on my shoulder
Ride like a soldier
I'm stay right here

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you, you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I'll be fighting with you, you, you, you, you
Because it's us against the world
The world, the world
You know it's us against the world
The world, the world, ohh (Repeat)

yewwww~

Recently, i kinda disgusted by someone,

so over no confident over herself..

Always do something so stupid that i cant really tahan anymore,

jealous over sth really stupid..

over sth that don't even exist.. 

sth that is so  not true.. haiz~

this 'someone' is actually...

me

2nd

another blog within 5 mins... what the???

ok.. i think im jus having fun typing with my long, cost me fortune blacked (guys, i really knot tahan the girly blue and bling bling thingy.. ive changed it to black!! hehe...ii noe i noe.. a waste rite.. but dun k.. i stil prefer black, looks so sexy.. ) typing with the nail tips are jus so fun, and am trying very hard to type with the speed as im not having the nails. (i noe what ive been toking abt is boring.. but dun k largh.. im having fun here.. hahahahahahs!!) 

oh yeah.. there was  once in spore.. i saw a crazy mum scold her kid like dog like tat.. poor  thing.. i think  that little gal is jus 2 yrs old.. the mum used a cap to throw at her face (she was in the pram).. and the mum kicked the pram.. when the kid is in there!!!! wat the... so scary.. and the baby cry until knot breathe.. and the mum yelled  like crazy ppl!!! so scary.. and.. (im so lazy to type with nails tips le.. i'l continue next time!) hehehehe...

ok..

i heard this song from 96.9 tonight.. and i really like it.. since it was.. ergh.. new? hehehe~ recently, i start to compile (in mind) those songs that will consider as 'oldies' for our generation.. i keep on picture how i introduce the songs i listen to my kids.. 

i jus wonder why me n my parents have such great gap in songs... cos it jus doesn't make sense.. for example.. if i have a kid in my 30s.. when he/she is 14 (an age of listen).. i'l b like 40s..i guess.. there'll stil b some common likings gua...

hmmm....

and i have been asked more than 4 times am i chinese in my spore's firm.... wonder did my mum did sth naughty... hehehe~~

anyway.. chinese new yr lai liao!! wish u all a very happy chinese new year and enjoy the coming year of ox!!! (im old!!!!!)

buhuhuhuuuu~~~

SO SAD~~~

today is my last day of work!!! im so sad.. people here are quiet.. but i still enjoyed working with them. cos sometime, they still care.. some singaporean are indeed, proud, and rude. but there are proud and rude people everywhere!!! so.. its still acceptable. hehe..

anyway. we are able to knock off at 3 today. I'l be able to go home early, get ready and have a good night with wendy them!!

let's rock the night!! woohoo~~

tsk tsk tsk~

ish ish ish.. im workless again. nth to do.. argh.. shud have stayed in kch if i wan more work to do. but, all in all, spore's intern is stil a good experience.

Though technically, i didn't learn much, but i managed to experience different culture, lifestyles and foods!! walau!! food here is quite nice leh, i mean, the quality is ok, and oso a lot of different choices!! so amazed lar.

but feel so guilty that i ate so many!!!! most the girls here are skinny!!! i mean skinny but toned. really healthy looking. and amazingly fair!!! (guess those fair ones are not typical singaporean though) make me feel so ugly largh~~ haiz haiz..

Going back soon~

I'm going back to kch for cny real soon! And Im very happy for that. Which means, my summer holiday is near to the end le.. though there is still 1 month.. but~~ haiz.. i just dun enjoy my life in Australia.

The speed of walking of the ppl here are still not so scary lar.. stil acceptable cos im faster than them.. hahaha~ but I remember i cant compete with ppl from hongkong. ppl here are more hardworking than kch's and australia!! DEFINITELY!!

if you able to survive in singapore, you'll have GREAT life in Australia!

So what does that mean? It means that I'm gonna try my best to get a job in Spore once i graduate. But before that, I'll accomplished my intern in Australia first. Cos my pro' papa told me that if wanna obtain technical knowledge, Australia will be a better place, cos the distinctiveness between draughtsmen and architecture is more obscured in Australia than in Singapore.

Indeed, technical department and design department are totally separated by a centre lobby, or so called waiting room and conference room and receptionist hall. its just.... quite different from Australia. They don't communicate!!!! (singapore).. even office's meeting also raised this qs.. COMMUNICATION!!

Architecture is a field that needs strong and good communication within the whole design team! lack of communication will result in bad design and late outcome... anyway.. its just not good!

My hand so painful, the air-con room is so dry that my finger hurt so much.. and some of them bleedss... haiz haiz haiz~~very de sienz~

N i've failed in my weight lost plan. I ate a lot in spore instead of losing weight. But i walk a lot and i swim.. so hopefully wont gain...

will update soon.. when im free! (which i believe i will!!!))

And finally,

Yeah!! its friday!!!!!!

Thursday~

Ok guys, I know i should be working right now. But there really is no job for me. I've asked around, and all got nth for me to work on. I wonder is it because of my ability, or the office is really so relax... but today, there's not many ppl in the office. I think most of them went out for site meeting or site visit. I think in my department, there are only 7-9 ppl. So quiet, no one talks. And im so bored!!!

Other than that, Im very hungry too. And working life is tiring. I mean, the atmosphere of your working space is really very important. You can have a great work life within positive working ambience, otherwise, a disaster is foreseeable.

So some of you might wonder, 'if you got nothing to do. what are you doing now?' Actually, I was browsing through internet and look for online tutorials for some 3d modelling softwares. And I'm really very sleepy, I don't know why, but my eyes very heavy. So I try to blog sth to keep myself awake. What a life! phew~

Singapore is quite happening if compared with Perth. I like it somehow, though its tiring and stress, but time passes very quickly. I don' t have a sense of dull even if i stay alone in my place. Long working hours is another way to spend your free time, and stop you from thinking anything stupid and useless what so called 'ISSUES'. Food is cheap, life expense is low compared with Australia. (here, we don't talk about buying luxurious goods, even if we take that into account, having a 60% off from those branded stuffs is also very unbelievable largh!!!)

Singaporean, hmm.. not as bad as i was told or i thought. Mayb i haven't encountered any.. but they really like to q.. everything q q q.. eventho the q line very long, they stil dun mind q. And the gals are just so skinny, and healthy look.. they are not like other asian gals, they are skinny but toned.. i mean really toned~ very fit. I love those kind of figures. So, I guess if i got the chance to stay here longer, i might be able to lose some weight cos if i don't, its quite hard for me to get a proper clothes or dress.

hmm.. and another thing that amazed me is, quite a number of gals are fair. like very fair type. but i guess those are not typical singaporean gals. Cos most of the singaporean gals friend i noe, they like tanned skin.

I think i shud move on with my tutorial and try to find sth to work on. wish you guys have a great time and stay happy!

今天

终于找到我要的音乐啦。我从很小很小的时候就爱上这个音乐了，等我以后去旅游，如果有缘的话，我一定要特制一个音乐盒，而这个就是我要的音乐，然后当家传之宝！！哇哈哈哈～(想太多了。）

今天，我想专门写写我脚底的茧，（对于我的粗鲁，请大家多多包含）为什么要写这个茧呢？

因为今天放工之后，回到家里，换了身舒服的衣服之后，就坐在客厅里，跷起了二郎腿，读一读昨天买的书。读着读着，手不自觉的摸着脚底的皮，突然摸到了两三块厚厚的东西，各位，这两三块怪怪的东西呢，就是老娘的脚底茧啦！！嘿嘿～

就这几块茧，让我想到婴儿那滑滑的脚底，一点粗皮都没有。是那么的纯，真。儿时真幸福，没有烦恼，没有担忧，走累了，对着父母喊声：‘抱抱～’ 就可以不用劳烦自己的双腿，被疼爱的我们就可以被抱得高高的，随时都有强壮的肩膀依靠。幸福啊～每天的生活，唯一担心的就是考试考得好不好；如何得到父母的许可，跟朋友出去玩；跌倒受伤如何跟父母解释；想买自己喜欢的玩具；过年红包多不多；如何满着父母，偷偷跟自己喜欢的男生聊电话。（嘿嘿～）

想着想着，突然想到这些担忧，儿时的烦恼，对世界的某个角落里的人群，是很奢侈的。他／她们，没有机会担心考试考得好与否，因为没书读；不能跟朋友出去玩，因为时间是用来帮父母挣钱活口；跌倒受伤对这些小孩来说是家常便饭，根本不需要跟父母解释；玩具是就地取材做得一些小泥人，弹弓，爬树采野果；过年有一大碗白米饭，有肉，有一套新衣新鞋，就算得天独厚了。

他／她们可能在很小很小的时候，就有一双粗粗的小手，一对长了不知道有多少的大大小小茧的脚。小手小脚布满了大大小小的划痕。我或许对这些社会现象没有评论的资格，但我真的真的很希望在未来的生活，可以尽自己所能，在自己的能力范围内做出一点点的小贡献，给予微不足道的爱心。以宗教的名义～